we always wish to be understood by others, but how

我灰了。

2010-12-07T21:45:00.002+08:00

很偶然的，我想到了这个地方。它曾竟是我抒发情感的天堂。被遗忘的它，如今还有谁回来探访呢？记得高中的时候，班上的同学常会来这里下载照片，现在应该不会了吧，我希望是这样，就让它成为我最后一个小小的天堂吧。

开始写博客的时候，我只有17岁。现在的我21，很多事情都已有了改变。不管是家里，是朋友，还是我。这些改变都是成长的痕迹吧，是让人成熟的经历，却让人喘不过气来。我想我累了。

不习惯改变方式的生活，不习惯硬着头皮去做出那一个个不堪后果的抉择。这样的我不快乐。说我逃避也好，说我懦弱也好，我真得觉得，除了读书，我什么也不回，除了沉迷于自己的梦境里，我什么也不会，什么也不是。开始自我封闭，不或许想多了，但真正了解我的人真得不多。我一直在等着你履行承诺，让我觉得是我的错，放弃了你们，但是你没有。就像他所说的，真实的摆在我眼前，让我心情烦躁，更加心痛。是我奢望得太多，还是大家说的一套，做的却是另一套。

我灰了。

或许那才是对的决定。

Turn over a new leaf

2009-11-06T10:16:00.001+08:00

I want to start up a new blog, but I don't know how to :(
Which is a new site to start up all over again?

A post for WANG.

2009-08-21T09:18:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY FOR WANG.

School’s started, ain’t a really good beginning for me. I probably ruined my prospects in radio, if there was even any to begin with. You may call me selfish, mean; but I’m glad I did what I did and if given another chance, I’ll do the same again. I felt horrible initially, but I’m glad I stay true, true to myself. Aren’t you proud of me? Haha. Rebelling rules, authority (in some sense yes). Life like this though, we got to fight for our rights. Haha, sounds like some national day speech. STAND UP FOR SINGAPORE. LOLS.

Ruichao finally took leave and we went out for 4 days in a row. What a luxury! Haha. Cycling was tiring. I’m a lousy teacher, I couldn’t teach him, only able to ride him on our double bike. But we really love Pasir Ris Park. Quiet, huge and nice with pretty huts for stopovers. And we finally catch fireworks together after his friend con us last year. Back to Kallang, this time the crowd was 100 times more than last year. We can’t even find a quiet corner like last year and talk our hearts out. Haha. Instead we climbed up the railings and sat there, with a risk of falling off the indoor stadium. Lols. Happily we ate KFC while we watched half the fireworks as it was blocked off by the tress. HAHAHA. Low budget for fireworks. The height was really pathetic. I mean Kallang is so near to Marina Bay you know, along the same river somemore. Super joke.

Haha, am feeling sleepy already. Update again!
Wang, I will be going to send you off. Okay? :) :) :)

stupid blogger.

2009-07-28T10:52:00.000+08:00

Blogger is stupid, cause it does not allow me to upload pictures. So upsetting. Been trying for a long time.

School's starting, there's many things I haven't completed yet. And I know for sure, once school start, it's harder to find that motivation to work it out. And there are many things which cannot be completed, for circumstances occurred and yea, I'm no good enough in handling that. I'm lost! Haha.

Finally finish all my camps. 3 training camps before I officially qualify as a FACI for Freshmen Teambuilding Camp and yes, I had a time of my life. Debrief scares me a little, being the one who observe, guide answers, question the group's thinking, and teach. I'll talk about this again.

That's all folks. Till we meet again :)

I am sick of hearing that.

2009-07-03T10:48:00.002+08:00

It feels disappointed, to know that you haven't been out for 2 weeks with you boy thanks to your stupid quarantine, and how the previous date didn't turn out good either. And now that you request to break the 1 week 1 sat 1 date rule, to meet twice this weekend, he tells you he's having duty on sat and whosh! there goes your heart. I am no nice a person, don't expect me to say it's okay I understand for I hate NS and yes, I am extremely sick of being a NSman girl. SUCKS. Don't tell me it's not your fault or anything cause I ain't in the mood to differentiate that and I don't want to be nice anymore. This is annoying. I shall just go back to school tomorrow after I regain my freedom. Back to whom took away my 5.5days of freedom.

What a happy girl I am.

blogging

2009-06-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

I kinda stopped blogging because I feel restricted. There are many things not to be published, and many things to be sensitive towards. And yes, I don’t want any misunderstandings nor any unhappiness to arise.

And I bothered to write now is because I am bored. Tell me, what is the worst thing to ever happen? To fall ill on a Friday night, down with a fever and be stuck in bed for the weekends knowing that you only get to see your boyfriend on weekend. Marvelous! May this be just plain fever and nothing else.

Hmmm, maybe I should just lock my blog only to invited readers. There is this function right?

Let me sink.

2009-05-26T00:52:00.002+08:00

Let me sink.
In the pool,
where I find my favourite childhood hiding spot.
In the waters,
where tears doesn't make a difference;
where I can be myself;
where I don't have to care about others;
where I was back to the pure, innocent girl;
where everything would be the same again.
I am scared of losing.
Let me sink,
let me sink,
all over again......

some times.

2009-05-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

I know I havent been blogging/writing/taking notes on my life for months. I wanted to write many many times, but each time I got held back. I dont know how many people read, some times I want to make this place private, so that only close friends know about it. Then other times, I dont know how many people read, so I dont see a point in writing if nobody does care. LOLS. Emo-ish isn't it? I'm just kinda pluzzed with my life, by an incident that happened today. I dont like the way I get treated, then I lost my stand, cause I may be the cause of the fault. Hmmm. Life's like a maze, I need to find my way out before, I never wake up. :)

I promise I'll write soon, and yes, I want to change my blogskin. Somebody help me. I'm an IT noob. LOLS.

disheartened.

2009-04-24T01:19:00.003+08:00

It needs to stop, to stop thinking, to stop feeling. It needs to stop, to stop talking, to stop dreaming. It needs to stop, to stop and move on. I need to stop.

Disheartened is the word.

so sad, so sad

2009-04-12T17:02:00.003+08:00

So sad, so sad, so sad.
AS is so confusing, and yes, I've got FA paper tml too :( SOBX, with only an hour apart, still must cross the road travel from 1 building to the other, super no manners right? Why can't they just arrange the 2 venues to be in the same place? Then paper ends at 7pm, still must go home chiong for ECONS on Tue 9am. AHHHHH........

I need my energy booster!

a pleasant surprise!

2009-04-10T23:53:00.003+08:00

I was really bored with all the mundane mugging I had for the past few days. OMG, I hate studying for finals! Super kns, 13weeks of school, and I only started mugging now. LOL. :(:(:( Then suddenly, my boy appeared out of nowhere with a bouquet of flower in the when I was struggling my way through FA. :):):) It was a pleasant surprise! Haha, though I really have no idea why he decided to buy me flowers out of the blue moon, but nonetheless, the thought of him trying to cheer me up in the midst of all these boring studies makes me smile. Haha, that sight of him standing outside was so cute.

Sometimes, my boyfriend can be just so so random,
randomly sweet.
Thanks boy :):):)

Okays, back to reality, MUG HARD WEITING!

SO SHAG!

2009-03-17T16:42:00.002+08:00

This blog is so dead, just like it's owner.

I must be the craziest SMU student right now, who's leaving school during the most hectic period, week 11-12. Everyone's dying of presentation, project submissions etc, and I'm like going to fly this Friday off to Taiwan to do a programme. WTH right? Please congrats me! :(

Anyway, birthday was good. She's TWEENTEEN! It's like celebrations in the midst of busy weeks. Thank you all for your well wishes. :) Though I never reply, I do read it and smile at it okay? Hehe. Celebrations this year was different, no more ktv cause my girlfriends are not free! :( So I was lucky to be attached right now, to have my boy with me :)

It was nice, I was hungry so we dined early and the entire cafe was ours. So we just sat there and I had shepard's pie for the first time, hehe! I like. It was a cool place, Little Part 1 cafe @ Thomson. Oh and Joyce surprised me in class with a balloon delivery from the shop. Somemore the one that delivered was a guy so everyone was looking at me. Hello, he's just work for that place. Haha.

Dinner with Yin, Mus and Tong on Saturaday night was absolutely fantastic for we had a good girls' talk and chill out session at Dallas, Boat Quay, this super atas place. Thanks Wei Tong for sourcing the location, it's really good, especially with all the discounts avaliable. Hehe. My steak tastes so good, and the protion is so huge, RC will certainly love it.

Not forgeting the celebration I had in school with Mel, Sam, Marianne, Cassy. I feel so guilty, was so packed this sem over radio that I don't have time for meetups. I've only lunched with them twice only lah, compared to the every Thursdays meetups last sem. :( I miss gossiping with them.

Tau Huay with Leroy and Jeremy was great too. Stupid Jeremy, suan me say I only come for important occassions. No loh, I got try my best one loh :( Haix. Supper after AS midterms, SHIOK man. I like cold tau huay! But supper is fattening one loh.

Then last Saturaday, Yifeng&Queenie succeeded in planing an outing for the first time in their lives! I'm so proud and touched girls. WAY TO GO!!!! But walau, you guys super never give face one loh, not only did you pangseh Yanzhi to be the only guy, you never give the girls face lah. Watch soccer and neglect us, that LoyCheeKian still say what see when free celebrate my birthday. Sad liao. Hahaha!

Okay lah, supposed to be recording with Stanley right now, but I'm multitasking cause I want to do some justice to my blog. I kinda miss those days when I blog regularly, and I know my friends are reading and they post funny comments. But nowadays, we're just too busy for all these......

Well, I'll be on my 88.3jiaFM Taiwan Trip from 20-23March :)
See ya when I'm back!

I hate assignments, projects and presentations!

I like......

2009-03-01T18:39:00.003+08:00

I like who I am right now.

The sky's so beautiful, with the sun setting soon right in front of me. The weather's so cool, so romantic. My work is not done yet but it's okay for I feel I've everything under control. Recording radio shows have been less stressful and you finally see me smile behind those heavy doors. I'm no longer moaning over the 'lost opportunity' of missing OCIP this sem. I've got an awfully nice boyfriend, who's so cute whenever he speaks in our language to tease me and cheer me up. I love random phone calls to disturb him when he's gaming. Hehe :) He's so nice! I like the thought that I'll be leaving Singapore in 19days, leaving behind all the projects, assignments, presentations (temporary) and be back to my favourite place. I like to know that my special day is coming soon though I ought to emo over the fact that I'm jumping digits. I'll be meeting up with Sam and Mel this wed, it's been a long time since we met and it feels so great just thinking about it. Also, Leroy's going to treat me delifrance, yayy! And I've got a crave to shoot hoops, play arcade to collect tokens to exchange for sweet. I feel like soaking myself in the pool right now. I feel like having a drink while enjoying the scenery.

I'm just in high spirits right now :)
I like to be with you.

Happy Valentines' Day

2009-02-20T23:09:00.010+08:00

Relationships are the most complicated issues of a man's life. How is it possible for 2 people, raised from 2 different backgrounds, with 2 different characters and perspectives to be able to live together happily ever? Is the love that great to overcome all odds in life, giving them the courage to hold on together? Hmmm....I ain't too sure about this......But what I know is that,

the past 6months have been an amazing journey.
Never let go of this happiness, okay?

Pink is the loveliest colour on earth! :)

I love honey water! Voice very important to a deejay alrights.

Cook, cook, cook......

The ingredients.

His meal.

My meal.

Finally, the right present! :)

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!

:):):) sweet surprise!

Weiting does not like this life of hers.

2009-02-11T17:47:00.005+08:00

Weiting does not like this life of hers.
For she sacrificed her sleep, her friends, her family, her boyfriend for all the other commitments in her life. She should be happy, busy with the things of her choice. But when she realised she is no longer happy, and that the sacrifice is so big, she no longers smile. I haven't seen mom and day for days, haven't been talking to ZhanHao and helping him adapt to his JC life. I haven't put any effort in preparing for Vday, haven't decide to do something for Siyu before she flies... She haven't even been doing justice to herself, by allowing her to seat down and rest. My headache is so painful and I feel like breaking down but the tears only manage to go up to my throat and it got stuck. She doesn't know what she's doing, when suddenly everything feels so worthless and when nobody appreciates anything. Yesterday, 2friends mentioned that I lived a happening life, but does anyone even know the price to pay, and if I really truly enjoyed all that I've been through? Can somebody just stop the clock and question me my motive in life, and can I just stop torturing myself? Just look at those eyebags of mine. I feel so screwed. And I can't even work when I am free due to my headache. Thanks man.

2writing assignment, 1visualmap, 1presentation, 1quiz, 1midterms due next week.
Get a life.

All I ever wanted right now, is to lie in bed and cry till I lose my voice.
Can somebody walk me out of this?

Upset

2009-02-10T21:02:00.000+08:00

Am upset that she isn't appreciated for the time and effort she puts in for what she has done :(

angsty

2009-02-04T16:50:00.001+08:00

Deadlines, meetings, assignments, readings, presentations. IDOIT. I get angry easily when my timetable is so packed, and then I will start losing control of my temper. JIALAT.

am procasinating

2009-01-31T17:54:00.004+08:00

There's so much work to be done, but I'm simply not functioning. This is termed as PROCASINATING. Haix... Comeon, we're still in our CNY festive mood leh :(:(:( As I grow older, I realised I am starting to enjoy sleeping more and more, as in I like to sleep. Jialat. I feel so lazy to do anything uh... I just want to go out and chill with my boy, my friends, my family and burn those readings and assignments such that I don't get to see them again. It's time I start to work on my group projects before I die. Oh, I'm going Taiwan in week11-12, which means I'm going to pon class, miss assignments deadlines and cui when I'm back. Erm, in SMU, we only have up till week13 of school, so this explains why. HAHAHAHAHA. I'm nuts, where's my peanuts?

Notice any difference? Hehehe!

I promise to pick up my life

2009-01-22T16:27:00.001+08:00

I hate Thursday class. I’ve got no one to talk to, and Thursday without you msn-ing me just makes me miss you even more.

I’m feeling shit,
but it doesn’t really matters.
Be brave, be strong.

I promise to pick up my life,
and I promise myself not to xxx anymore.

I have to learn to live, for myself.
I need to learn to stop thinking of you.

2009-01-21T22:11:00.002+08:00

I haven't slept for the last 39hours.
And I'm starting to feel the withdrawal effects.

对不起，我爱你。

2009-01-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

对不起，

我爱你。

When I needed you the most, you were no where to be found.

2009-01-21T00:27:00.004+08:00

Never felt so shaky before.
When I needed you the most, you were no where to be found. No where to be understood.
:[

Ever since the game started, I lost. They never balanced out, the heart and the mind. To acknowledge what you never once accepted, to go against one's principles, and in the end, what do I get? I got stuck in my emotions, in defiance I attempted to compromised, but I feel so weak. A person's strengths and efforts isn't enough to overcome the obstacles. It doesn't help that time, place and all that matters wasn't where they were supposed to be. You were never meant to be in this game as it's beyond your abilities. I felt lonely fighting on.

It's tired acting all your life.

The bissful and happy girl.

2009-01-18T12:30:00.006+08:00

It's kinda ______ to have a boyfriend who doesn't know how to say good words to make it up to you. But that's because, he's too used to his social circle that consist around groups of guys and only guys. Well, isn't that good? You don't have to be jealous. But the point here is: although he's not good at expressing himself, he's awfully sweet. He sacrificed his rest time, by changing his Saturaday's shift to the morning, waking up at 4am despite the fact he returned home only at 8++pm from his shift, so that he can see you that weekend! BLEAMS. I'm still the blissful and happy girl! :)

*ps: Boy, thank you for the surprise. I'm touched:) I feel so fortunate to have you.

The lauch of SMU Campus Radio :)

2009-01-12T10:58:00.006+08:00

Today's the lauch of SMU Campus Radio :)
Hehe, do tune in if you're free yeah? All you need to do is to log on to www.smube.com, and click on to that very obvious button. :) I'll be dejaay-ing 2shows this semester:

1) Every Tuesday, 9-10pm <<音乐Pandora>> - 黑玫瑰与MOPENG王
2) Every Thursday, 10-11pm <<音乐小巨人>> - 音乐无边界

So if you're free to catch me on air alrights? 黑玫瑰与MOPENG王 is something like Mars vs Venus where we'll discuss all the problem between the sexes which is like so OMG for me! HAHA, if you cannot imagine me bitch/gossiping, you definitely should tune in. While 音乐无边界 is a brand new show where we will be sharing different types of songs with the listeners. Yippee. But this programme is a lot of hardwork man, as there are lots of preparations to be done.

Back to school life, back to making decision between choices. Haix. I hope that this week will be better :) Weiting, dont stress!

I came across this picture, taken during SMUBE's IPT. Haha, I'm the zai one who's trying to catch the frisbee, though i look not very the glam, but don't you think I look quite pro? All geared up ready for it man, and yes, I was good in that game :P I caught it!

This was how I spent my NewYear's countdown. Thanks to Mr.Bf who brought me sparkles. I'm back to being a kid!

It's been a long time since I went outdoor. SHIOK!

May I know what are you looking for, ah boy?

My favourite NSF. HEHEH <3

shag

2009-01-07T17:14:00.002+08:00

Am so shag.......This morning I woke up physically, but my brain is still sleeping.

Yesterday was my official first day of school and I spent 6hours in class, 6.5hours recording. OMG. Can someone tell me if I'm a fulltime student/dejaay? Haha. I hate the machines, I simply can't operate it and the computers hate me for it keeps giving me problem. All I'm good at is talking. ZZZ.

I'm starting to worry that I've got too many commitments this semenster, for I'll be dejaay-ing 2 shows in SMU CAMPUS RADIO, every Tue and Thur nights, my OCIP main comm commitment(I feel like giving this up :( ) and my music class every Fri afternoon. Not forgeting the fact that I've got so many social activities. I feel really bad last hols for there were so many people I didn't met up with. Yesterday, Cindy, my music director asked me if I want to chair Live Radio...haix, in anyway, I'll be organising it, but chair-ing is so stressful, so much work. And yes, I've only been through 1 week of school. I seriously don't know why I took up so many stuffs, and I wonder if I can cope?

Nonetheless, I'm so happy for this sem, I've got so friends in the same classes as me for my mods, and it's so cool. Econs class was a surprise for the seat Shijie saved for me was next to this NJ girl, Nina and yeah, more familiar people seating around me. Hehe.

PHEW, I hate it when school starts.

傻瓜

2009-01-04T11:04:00.002+08:00

歌曲：傻瓜
歌手：温岚专辑：热浪

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

a date w my bf!

2009-01-03T15:59:00.001+08:00

Am so happy to know that I'll be seeing you!
:) Bleams.

GOODBYE 2008, HELLO 2009!

2009-01-02T11:02:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE 2008, HELLO 2009!

Everything seemed so fast, for all I know, I was still slacking around, mingling with the society at work, then it came to school, then it came to holidays and now, semester 2 is starting, and very soon, year1 as a uni student’s going to come to an end. A big WOW!

Year 2008, a year full of ups and downs.
I probably had never cried as much as I ever did last year. It was one of the toughest years I went through, but as I lost some things, I gained others.

Initially, I hated working at Subordinate Court. I couldn’t adapt the sudden lost in freedom to being desk-bound. Then I couldn’t bear to leave my job, for I miss the people, whom I still keep in contact through emails. Then it came to more jobs, as I got used to the working world office hours, realising that I couldn’t do without money. I’m a big spender due to my excessive social activities. It’s either I play too much, or I’ve got too many friends, either way, it isn’t going to change for year2009. Haha.

I had the luxury, to travel 2 countries in a short span of 6months. Something I’ll never dreamed off, we aren’t rich. The HongKong trip away from adults, with 2besties where I experience hostel life for once and shop till I seriously drop and refuse to stop. My friends know, I ain’t the kind who buy so many things at one go. And the night calls we had, which made someone realised, I was missed. Taiwan trip was another highlight, where I made great company with everyone and I still miss Mandy and Francis. Amazing people, amazing trip. I never knew tour mates could get along so well and organise night trips together in a foreign land. That was so fun!

To the darkest moment in my life, where I experienced a major setback: disappointment, despair, love, strength. I attempted to hide, away from the world, from the calls, the sms-es. How I wished certain people were there, but they never were, how people didn’t know how to console me. It’s normal, when you’re doing really well, if I were in your shoes, I probably felt the same way. The pain was there, the shocked, but I thank god for giving me this setback. Till now, I still feel like crying when I looked back, and I’m sorry that I made the people closest to me worry. I just felt I lost something, maybe it was called pride, we all knew, I tried.

This dragged on, till I finally landed up in SMU. The letters were hurtful, and I don’t know what I want. Fate always has something planned for us, and though I lost the hostel life I always wanted, I found you. Let’s start with school. SMU seemed to be the right choice, given my character. I was challenged, exposed to the big world out there and yes, I had my share deal of fun. I gained back my confidence in English, AcaWriting really tested my command in that language and challenged my thoughts. Never will I expect to top for a 10pg research paper, all in English, in my life. From an E till and A, the joy was immersed. To add on, I had the least help from rc for this paper. Then LTB brought me back to drama, for I filmed, and it was a long time I stepped back to where I came from. Drama gave me a rebirth in character, I found my true self and I finally found my way back again. TWC thought me the importance of friends, and I’m grateful to have Leroy and Jeremy with me. The friends I made, I cherish. It’s great to be freshies and my resolution for year 2009 is to keep them with me for the next 3.5yrs.

SMU gave me an opportunity, an opportunity to stand on my own, not like in a production where I’ve got people with me, but to be on my own in a competition. 88.3JIAFM. I never knew I could act, I could overcome stage fright, go on air etc. I proved my capabilities, and I made my family and friends proud. That’s sufficient, for I was already a winner, though I wouldn’t mind that $1500 haha! I also knew who was the one I could trust on throughout that period, the ones who showed their support, friendships, I’m a blessed girl!

Lastly, I learnt to love in year 2008, and shall continue to love in year2009. Dear, we had a roller coaster ride. You’re the low profile kind, so I shall email you this section instead. HAHA! May we move on happily ever after though in year2009, we’ll both be flying every often, and there might be months before we get to meet ups. Let’s work hard together alrights?

In year2009, I wish for a happier year, to shed less tears, experience less worries, angsy, have more laughters and a smooth ride ahead.

88.3jiaFM校园特派员

2008-12-23T22:23:00.006+08:00

A big big THANKYOU to everyone that came :] THANKYOU for your support, I couldn’t have done it without you guys! I was so nervous, trying so hard not to freak out when I'm on stage, uncertain if I can bring it on. It was you guys, your cheers, your smiles, your encouragements, your reassurance that gave me the unknown power to go out there, stay cool, stay calm and do my best. I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF. It was one of the best performance I had, so into my characters, my speech.

The journey was amazing.

The day before, Mel and Ruichao came over to helped me rehearsed and I felt so shag! Mel's a really good friend and trainer, trust her to make you repeat everything all over again. In addition she makes a good Secretary cause she takes down notes on your performance, the timing and hence by default, she's my Artistes Manager. Haha. Then we touched up on the posters, play a bit and I never rehearsed at night anymore cause I trusted her. Haha! And I got like a lot of stuff to pack and bring, it feels as though I'm moving house.

20December2008, supposed to report by 9am but I was late. Never trust dad cause he doesn't seemed to understand what I tell him. It was so troublesome bring so much stuff, luckily Alex (CR02) helped me with it. They were like, which Auntie is it carrying such awful bags. Yucks. We rehearsed our song item before heading to level4, Urban Hair to do our hair. Haha, my request was no straight hair please, I got a big square-ish face, which will enlarged in it. But I was so worried that I am going to look just like prom if it curls again. Haha, thank goodness the effect was fine. The hairstylist's damn cool. She tied plaits for me then she push it up, mess it to create the curls. WOW. So fun lah! Guess what, it's also the first time I tied plaits, so noob right? I was so excited :)

Adeline was early. So proud of her! She helped me with the makeup then Mel came shortly and omg, I took super long for the makeup as compared to the rest! Maybe cause there wasn't any place to seat, we had to stand and it's like so hard, plus I kept moving unintentionally. Haha, Adeline was annoyed. We had a quick lunch, and I saw Poh and WeiKian who couldn't recognise me. OMG LAH. They super funny leh, the way they looked at me, and stood and stared even though I waved! Haha! Then slowly, I see more and more people, more and more friends who are here to support me. There were like a lot a lot of people lah!

mel, adeline, yifeng, debbie, yunshuen, kangyu, jason, lester, cheekian, chenliang, wilson, yanzhi, siyu, mus, weitong, yinyin, yinrong, esther, sokhan, ziyang, poh, weikian, tiansheng, kelvin, shijie, shanshan, stanley, rosie, joseph, leroy, chormin, mengjiat, angel, woonhwee, justin, eugene, ruichao, dixie, peiquan, mom, dad, zhanhao and the others whom I might miss out. I really didn't mean to miss your name but there were really alot of you. I'm so upset that I didn't manage to take pictures with some of you lah :( It was such a rare opportunity for me to look so pretty lol!

Before I went on stage, I was really worried, haha, Poh is super observant lah, she noticed and sms-ed me. OMG. I saw my friends, my family and I knew I must not disappoint them for making a trip down to support me. And yes, you guys gave me the courage to open my mouth. Haha, my hand was trembling you know? Then saw MrLeroy walking in with his dragonboat paddle, I was even more determined to do my best. See, people really rushed to see you one loh! I cannot make it a wasted trip for my supportors. SO I DID IT. This was the same for round2, where I saw Chormin trying to climb over, bending hard to see my act, smiling happily at me. OMG CHORMIN LEH! My good old drama friend giving me her fullest support, how can I not put in my 100%? I truly understood why ZhangYing kept telling us to get many friends to come down, the support really helped to boost our confidence and morale. THANKYOU GUYS FOR YOUR ENCOURAGMENT AND SMILES. I was able to see every single one of you on stage!

Oh, and THANKYOU Mummy for following me to the toliet when I changed after each rounds. It's really very hard not to mess up my hair when I changed. OMG. After changing on stage, my hair totally looked half-collapsed! Haha. CUI is the word to describe it. Haha, poor mummy missed out others performance when she ran up and down with me :( I am so grateful to her! Also to Cheekian&Jason who helped me laid our my props for my act. Haha, they all super comical one lah, esp that Jasontan, when I tell him what to do, I seriously was worried with the look on his face. I was so glad I was into my roles and I swear I don't ever want to change on the stage again. Changing in front of so many other people, all fixing their eyes on you... My supporters created really good sound effect when I stripped. So loud. Heng I never laugh when they lauged, screamed, or I'll ruin my hardwork. Haha. GOOD JOB WEI TING!

Round3 was a WIT test. Early that morning did I find out that they had customised an act according to our characters and will throw us a scenario to deal with. I got Diwei, last year contestant who's now a partime DJ. He walked up to me before my turn and I knew he was my tester and felt so luckily. Imagine I got Dejiang, it would have been more tough lah. Haha! Diwei super funny, cause before I went up for Round2, he saw my outfit and was like "Weiting, what happened to you?". I was taken aback cause firstly, I never talked to him before yet he remembered me. Haha, then this time round he was like, "It's gonna be no problem for you." I really am BLESSED to have such a witty brain at that point of time when he threw me with a scenario of me breaking up with him due to Allswell drink. HENG UH. Boy called me immediately when it ended, haha! He complained it was so typical, I was just using what I used in real life everyday on him to my competition on the stage :p This is called smart okay! To be able to 举一反三！

I'm super upset my supporters only came in 3rd for Best Cheerleading Team. OMG, they were good loh, at least they deserved 2nd? When I heard my name at that moment, I never felt I disliked my name so much. Haha! Not to such an extent, but I need to smile and cheer like I'm happy. BUT IN MY HEART, YOU GUYS ARE FIRST OKAY! I LOVE YOU ALL MAN, YOU GUYS RAWKZ. I felt as though as I was having my own personal concert up there when you guys cheered for me, interacted with me during my act. 超棒的！

Yeah then you know, the Allswell Special Prize, when they announced the first winner, NUS... I was thinking, is it a blessing to win that prize? For it is definite that you will not win 1st as there will also be a free Taiwan trip what. Then I hear my name, WOW! Damn surprised and happy lah! OMG, cause I didnt felt that my Round3 was as impressive as my first 2 rounds. Ehh, Round1 is zai cause I managed to slow down, looked confident and barely stumble over my words. HAHA! Ohh, fyi, Round3 does not constitutes to our results, it's merely to decide on who suits Allswell image, who caught their attention to give out these 2 air tickets :)

When I got off the stage, 2 foreigners requested to take pictures with me la! I was stunned, don't know how to react or handle the situation and apparently no one came to save me!?! They looked like they were from Thai and they took a lot a lot of pictures lah! OMG. My smile was so unnatural, cause I was freaking scared. OMG. Why do they want my pictures for? EEYER! Because of this, I didn't pay attention to the names of those who went up to collect the 优胜奖. When they requested those who's names were not yet announced, I was like "I think it's me" then anyhow go up. OMG and realised I was part of the remaining 4. HUH, then later when it came down to me and Sinkai, I was like "I am the poor one that ZhangYing told us, as they sure play the tension between the 2 of us". Haha. But okay lah, very zai to be the remaining 2 you know. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU WEITING! Though you didn't win, you gave your best, you entertained your crowd and that's your goal :] I LOVE WEITING!

Haha! After that, I became the busiest person on earth! I was jumping around cause I was simply too HIGH! Haha, cannot uh? People happy mah, ehh I never join this kind of on-the-stage-competition before loh, finals somemore leh! I did SMU proud too loh! :):):) The 3 biggest winners had to record our 得奖感言and then after that recieving wishes and huges from my dear friends, taking photos like nobody's business. That moment, was my moment! Hehe! Let be BHB abit okay, like what RC said, 这是你最后一次的辉煌史了！

THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR COMING DOWN! I'm sorry I didn't had time to talk to you guys but hey, you were with me throughout my show and so I therotically never neglect you since I kept you in my heart. Haha! LOVE LOVE LOVE!

虽然我没有赢，但若我是你心目中的冠军，你心目中的校园特派员，那就够了。因为这对我来说，就是冠军了！:)

88.3jiaFM校园特派员 final 10 contestants.

Thankyou Adeline for making me look so pretty with the makeup.

POH and WEIKIAN!

The girls contestants :)

The winner SINKAI from SP.

ALEX, the nice guy.

CHARLIE, the funny one.

CR05 BAI WEI TING from SMU!

My beloved family :)

年轻本色。

BAOBEI! The nerds.

Jason and Weitingsss!

PEIQUAN!

ANGEL!

My SMUBE's Artistes Manager-JOSEPH!

The old besties!

SMU!

CCHMS!

My personal bodyguards!

My examiner, DIWEI.

NJC!

My face looked so sharp in this photo, so nice! :)

LEROY! :P

DIXIE came when everything ended! Haha!

Can you see the error?

The ultimate nerd of the year! CR05 BAI WEI TING!

校园特派员

2008-12-19T16:39:00.003+08:00

Please please please,
do come down and support me for my competition tomorrow okay!

20DECEMBER2008, 2pm, HEREEN LVL1 STAGE

Come dressed in red, easier for you all to find each other.
I was reharsing all day and I'm feeling so damn shag. I am so not prepared :(
Thank you mel and ruichao for pei-ing me, though that monster pig has left for his buffet already! :p Blahx. I will work hard, and I really need your support :)

Let WEITING become your 校园特派员！

will I freak out?

2008-12-16T10:08:00.004+08:00

I’m so so so so glad I survived last week! :)

Tuesday was horrible, rushing between SMU’s and 88.3jiaFM’s studios. I was really down, it’s like I’ve got my SMU’s DJ exam the next day, but I’m stuck recording the theme song for the competition, and then my script got like rejected. It was a last minute thingy, and I even had one rehearsal already. OMG, felt so pissed and upset for having to come up a new one by Friday, and looking at my schedule, all I had was the whole of Thursday to get it done with.

I realised I’m like so hmm…how to say leh, not creative, cause I couldn’t think of anything and what I’ve got are inputs from others, then work on it. I’m like so brain dead and boring. Jialat. What happened? But still, I was pleased with coming up with my talksets for my exams within a few hours, I’m good:) Hopefully the grades say so too, if I don’t make it, I cannot officially become SMU BE’s DJ loh. I think I will be super disappointed by them, especially having gone through so many trials to get to there. But anyway, I benefited from the training in the sense, I managed to talk calmly and slowly on air last Wednesday. Haha! Cause our trainers were good! They pointed out my flaws and yes, I worked on it! Though I screwed up the exam, by stumbling on my words, screwed up operating the system, forget to off my mic and I cursed and lastly with the computer hanging on me. Great. I really don’t want to know the results, which are coming out soon this week.

Now I’m left with 4 more days to my competition. There are preparations to be done, but I’m simply procrastinating. I feel so lazy! Well, the only thing I ought to be proud of is that I got my brows thread. That’s like the only thing I completed. Shall start recording later. OMG! I don’t feel like working.

Do you think I will freak out on the day itself?

Do come down and support me okay!

Your presence will make a huge difference.

20December2008, HEREEN Lvl1 stage, 2pm.

All supportors please be there latest by 1pm :)

Come early to get better view mah, very important leh.

Ohh, red's my colour, so come in your sexy red tee and join in the red crowd.

Thankyou!

I'll see you there! :)

The first time the 10contestents met. Too bad Krystal didnt join us for dinner.

My unique breakfast set!

The present I made for him. Nice right?I painted and built it myself loh. Am so proud of it. But walau, he very idoit loh, initially he thought I bought it. KNS! Nevermind, it must be too nice that's why he mistaken it :P

HAPPY NINETEEN BIRTHDAY!

shag......

2008-12-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

I challenging on my body limits, seeing how far I can go.

This is seriously taxing, causing I’m feeling the strain. I am also so sleepy and tired. No good girl. I’ve got so many things to complete and I am not even half way done. Oh dear…I need a personal assistant to budge me to move on. JIAYOU GIRL! 13 more days and you’ll be over and done with. :) Currently, my schedule’s super hectic and nobody seemed to be able to date me. Esp next week which starts in a few hours time. Pray that I pass my last SMU BE’s Mandarin DJ test of recording 30mins of my own show on Wednesday, including the technical part. Immediate failure for failing to press the record button. Haha. Not forgetting rushing to 88.3JiaFM on Tuesday for some song recording, and my last ON-AIR SESSION before the finals.

So please tune in on 88.3Jia FM on 10 DECEMBER 2008, 10-11pm if you can. I promise I will try my very best to slow down when I talk, and treat the mike like those in Kbox.AHAHAHAHAH!

Chiong uh~

Looking back!

2008-12-03T22:03:00.010+08:00

Looking back......

The last week of class and I'm going to miss these classes! :(

CORE002---Prof Eugene Tan

Academic writing was fun because of them :)

Smiles:)

BEEP BEEP! (Prof is the one in blue)

LTB's graduation!

The video camera I made for CSP submission. Cool right?

Your future film maker (dreaming only).

ASSIGNMENT 3 SUBMITTED! NO MORE ACADEMIC WRITING FOR ME!

Pray pray i can do well this time. I need to resuce my grades for assignment 2. Haha, and I put in so much effort, especially in my language etc. Oh, let me hao lian a bit.

AHEM. We had 2 grammar quiz, and these were my scores:

Grammar quiz 1 - 21/25 (omg, not bad right?)

Grammar quiz 2 - 17/25 (this one is a lot tougher than the previous, we've got to spot the mistakes and I fell for the parallel structure trick which I ought to have know! Haix, nevermind, I am still happy with my grades)

Hehe, amazing right? Especially for someone who started from grammer to grammar. Jason, Kangyu and Yanzhi cannot laugh at me anymore! Even Ruichao commented that there were minimal grammatical errors for assign3. GOOD JOB, WEITING!

The DONUT PARTY which Prof surprises us!

Prof and the lucky no.52.

Me and Shijie:)

At Settler's Cafe.

Happy Birthday Serene and Zhe Han!

The-Last-Day-Of-The-Semester-Concert! The band from timber rawkz!

Zhehan, Serene, Angeline and obviously me. Haha.

ZheHan's 21st Birthday Party.

ZheHan's birthday gift and TianSheng's forfit.

The long awaited KTV session for our AW class.

I finally knew how much taller is he from me. Haha!

:):):) My boy.

on air, disaster :(

2008-12-01T14:54:00.004+08:00

Friday wasn’t as good as I hoped it would be. Hmmm…

I was too nervous. Cause I was shocked, when Candice sabo-ed me on air. OMG. I felt like a joke. It was hilarious. Luckily he was sporting. My boy’s so sweet! :) I really ought to change this bad habit of talking so freaking fast. Haix. My sentences wasn’t properly structured either. Attended SMU Chinese DJ training this morning, the same thing happened. How should I kick off this bad habit? Especially when I get nervous, I go even faster. This is bad, and it made me feel so rotten on Friday that I just wanna dig a hole and hide. I felt so so cui, so omg. My voice is so awful over the radio, so coarse, ungentle...yucks! I’m sorry if I disappoint my dear friends who tuned in to support me. I hope I managed to bring you some laughters through my screwing up. Hahaha! Feel free to give me constructive feedback so that I could work on it. Thanks!

I promised I must do better on my second air-time on 10 Dec 2008! :)

Meanwhile, it was busy, settling air tickets for the two men in the house, sending them away to China. Gosh, I’m so glad my brother is away. He can be such a pain in the ass at times. I finally got to drive without Dad around and it feels so much better. I actually parked better, faster, straighter without him. See, I’m good, just that he’s giving me so much pressure! Hehe.

Shall enjoy my week with Mummy, not that I’m always home though. And the time I have with the car, but……I don’t want to wash the car! :(

end of exams

2008-11-27T10:27:00.003+08:00

END OF EXAMS!
Not like I really slogged my heart out compared to the term, especially when I only had 2papers, and still managed to find some chilling out time in the midst of everything. Now that the semester ended, I’m feeling nothing. Ha. Maybe I need to catch some sleep, but I can’t seem to get past 8am. I have this really cute auto alarm clock in me nowJ

Now for some promotional stunt.

Catch me on air tomorrow, Friday, 28 Nov 2008, 10pm at 88.3jiaFM. Hehe, the first time I’ll be on air and it’s a 1hr programme, though I won’t be taking up the entire hour. Hahaha!

Vote for No.5 WEITING : http://www.883jia.com.sg/index.php/main/jia_events/

This will contribute to my final results too.

Apparently, there’s a lot of spamming going round. Haha, the votes are crazy and I really thank my academic writing classmates for being such great friends! They’ve been rooting for me all these days, voting despite that they’re still having their exams! Special thanks to Ange, Wei Kian, Chun Fei and Tian Sheng!

I kind of lost myself these days, not knowing what I really want in life. Take the competition for example, people are competitive. I don’t foresee myself winning and it's really okay, I’m there to learn, after all, I didn’t even expect to go thus far. But I just isn't motivated somehow. Then to my family, I think I’ve been neglecting them. I’ve been allocating my little bit of free time anywhere but to them. But I know they still love me. Mummy’s really excited about the competition, voting so much, listening to the radio etc. She doesn’t really like the thought about me in the media industry, but I guess it’s different now. As for us, sometimes I get lost. With work piling up, commitments, expectations. Probably we haven’t fully adjusted to the fact that status have changed, but we’re doing fine. I want to take things slowly, one at a time. I’m accepting the fact that I shouldn’t be so manly and it’s weird to know I’m somebody else’s girl. Like being more feminine...to me, it's beyond imagination! Haha. I get more emotional and stuff, it's funny you know? Ha. He became an important part of my world.

Hopefully I don’t attempt to do anything stupid tomorrow on air.
STAY TUNE! Loves.

help

2008-11-21T17:10:00.002+08:00

I am so not motivated, so sleepy all the time.
I barely could concentrate for long, and I don't remember what I read.
Omg. This is killing me slowly day by day.

LAME.

OMGOMGOMGOMG

2008-11-12T20:30:00.003+08:00

Okay. Take a deep breathe.

Apparently, I recieved a call in class on Monday. Was randomly wondering who could it be, I've never seen that number before. Hmm...so started day-dreaming, and I didn't realised that hey, my dream is going to come true. Cause when she called again, I was so shocked that my heart's shivering inside, and my hands turned cold. The new is: I made it to the finals of 88.3jiaFM Campus DJ. Like OMG. Huh??? And I'm the only one representing school. WHAT!?! Finals on 20Dec. I shall leave all the panicking till after exams. OMG!!!

Am emo-ing for no particular reason. Haix.

The pretty cake Mel surprised me with after class to congrats me :) Awww....she's so sweet.

Mel! This is for you! You're setting high standards for him man. Hahaha. *hints* :p

pictures speak louder than words :D

2008-11-10T10:13:00.013+08:00

LAST WEEK WAS CRAZY.
But guess what?
I CLEARED ALL MY PRESENTATIONS FOR THIS SEMESTER! :)

TWC's business plan was good. After all, we made an effort to do market research at Ubi Industrial Park, our surveys, and our presentation with the Singapore Police Force. It's a whole lot of work. We were so high when it was over. The numerous pics we took before and after and then the chilling out session with buddies and all. Cool shit! LTB's over too. Roadrunnerz was damn lucky. We draw the first lot and got it over and done with. Our emo-shit video was more of a self-entertainment for us. Haha. But still, I love my team. Now we're left with CSP portfolio and to sell MOE our package. OMG, why are my projs freaking big scale?

Moreover, I never felt so creative before. And somehow, I concluded that SMU, wasn't such a bad place, although I seriously miss out a lot on hall and social life. But I guess, it suits me. It allows me to put on my creative thinking cap and do whatever I want.

Pictures speak louder than words.
This what what happened for the past few weeks...

S13 dinner, where we finally met up with the NSmen, but it feels so funny. We're leading so different lifestyles man.

8/11: Queen&Jason's birthday celebration:)

My old old pals! NTUvSMUvNUS.

Cassie's birthday "bash" in the roof top garden at the library. We were so damn noisy and people were starting at us from the glass-windows. OMG. Thanks to Sam's scream. Hehe. It was so much fun playing around:)

They bully me! Omg, cream fight! But this is my favourite picture. Hehe, I look so childish! :P

The GSR we booked to supposedly "mug". The view was so nice! I love studying in pretty GSR from douby ghaut all the way to city hall :)

Campus TV production when I practically slacked. It was great catching up with Naz

Mugging at some random corner in SOE.

MEL, my no.1 friend in school. She helped me finish my choco! So fattening.

PsychoMotor with Prof Kan.

Chilling out at "The Loft". It's a cool hangout. I wanna go there again.

WT: Prince Charming, where are you?

Professional look. Don't we look like so OL?

WT: If only we could rest and relax and leave GPSALT alone for the time being.

I'm the best photographer man. I took so many nice views for Leroy man. He zuan dao lah. My pics are not nice, cause he's not a talented photograher :P

The truth behind the shots. UNGLAM TO THE MAX!

Roadrunnerz with TA, Sally.

End of Final Presentation. PHEW!

Execution day where I had to squeeze in that S-size dress. OMG. I can't breathe! Zzzz...

The first bus 157 trip we took together on a different status. Hehehe :)

The Deepavali Meal we intended to have long ago! YUMMY!

I'm hungry!

Second round. But my shy boy just wouldn't admit that he's glutton :D

I love cam-whoring. I'm getting better at taking photoshots, esp with my new camera. Did I mentioned that Mummy bought me a new camera as my 20th birthday present? Hao kua zhang wor, but what to do? She's my Mom who's as weird as I am. Hahaha. So I've got one less present next year. You've to make up for it. Muahahaha!

对不起。

2008-11-03T10:01:00.001+08:00

我也不太清楚发生了什么事，只是闹了个别扭，却演变成不愉快的局面。对不起。仍不明白，但你似乎很在意，很难过。对不起。我很想知道为什么，只想你快乐，只想和你在一起。我心里也不好受。对不起。

It's amazing how you never learn your lessons

2008-10-28T15:21:00.002+08:00

Okay. I love MEL TAN, for being there all these while. Throughout my disappointment, my angst, my upsetting and crying moments. I LOVE YOU! :) I'm so glad that we're in the same school and we are able to meet up to study. Hehe. Spent a lot on lunch today, to celebrate the end of emo moments. (credits goes to mel for going to cathy to buy me a good lunch) But apparently, it started with BANG again. :(

It's amzaing how you never learnt your lesson.

I wonder how I managed to sustain till today, my tolerance to comman sense seems extremely high man. That's bad, cause it's dangerous.

i dont want to wake up

2008-10-27T08:50:00.003+08:00

Ought to be sleeping at this bloody hour, but what am I doing? I looked terrible right now, my nose is still blocked, but it isn't important anymore. My heart's aching. I don't want to wake up, cause I'm afraid I'll be disappointed all over again, when all I wish for, was the least you could do. My wishful thinking, your slience, we're standing at different poles on the earth.

It doesnt really matters.

2008-10-26T23:40:00.005+08:00

It doesn't really matters anymore, right?
This is what a normal person will expect,
from at least a friend,
a friend who bothers to care...
It's not just about saying "sorry" now.
Your inactivity is making it worst,
and I really don't know how to react.
Am damn pissed, damn disappointed.
Feeling like an idoit,
to even bother to wait at this point of time.
Wait for you to do something, to say something.
A wishful thinking on my part,
we all know, it's unlikely,
but does that means I've got to give in?
Tell me what to do, what you want me to do?
Cause no logical person will do what I did.
Fine. It's stupid to be affected.
WEITING's AN ASSHOLE.
But, you're WORST!

i had a bad day

2008-10-26T10:32:00.002+08:00

I had a bad day, and they day just started.

1. Walked aimlessly in school to find food with a super heavy bag filled with camera, video camera, the cables, my bottles, and not forgetting 2 super fat laptops. My back hurts now:(
2. There's no food in school because it's Sunday morning? OMG what about students who worked really hard in school on Sunday? AM SO UPSET. I HAD NO BREAKFAST!!! A hungry man is an angry man, FYI.
3. Danny's late again, and yes am stuck at this freaking cold place waiting for him:(
4. So paiseh, the first time I met him in school after the hugging scene. Smiled at him, hopefully not too fake...Haha...(okay, this does not attribute to a bad day.)
5. Mr BF is so stupid. I feel like ignoring him for his noob-ness.
6. I have to come to school this weekend, like the entire weekend, Sat, Sun and Mon.

I FEEL SO UPSET NOW!

Feeling nasty.

2008-10-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

I can’t do English for nuts.
And I’m serious.
Maybe I should have gone China in the first place.
Academic writing is screwing me up. Guess what, it’s part of my GPA, and I’m feeling extremely nasty with a small setback cause it reminds me of GP. There seemed to be a hurdle in me, I thought I let it go, then I realized, no, it’s always there. I still lack the faith in my capability. Well probably, I don’t even have it to start with? I lack the confidence in believing that I can do it.
Moodless.

LTB VIDEO RAWK MY WORLD, school life at least :D

2008-10-20T23:41:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA!

EVERYBODY PLEASE GIVE WEITING YOUR SUPPORT BY TAKING 15MINS OF YOUR TIME TO WATCH THIS (I GUARENTEE SUPER FUNNY) VIDEO.

PART1--- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aui6EvhCa-w

PART2--- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-hllvu2ryrE&feature=related

This is my Community Service Project, under this module called "Leadership&Teambuilding". My client is the National Crime Prevention Council, and our project is targeted at secondary school kids. It aims to bring awareness on something very relevant to everyone of us---CYBERCRIME.

This is the reason why my recess week has been exhausted. This is why I have no time to do most of my other stuff. Filming whole day at each other's place, staying at macs till 1am to edit, staying over the day before our execution to prepare our presentation package and rehearsal our presentation flow. Thanks, now I've got a new name. Haha. SO MALU! Still, I had fun. I guess out hard work did pay off judging from the response we had after our 2 assembly talks in the schools. GREAT JOB, BEEP BEEP! I love the talk-show style of presentation! :) Whose brilliant idea is this? (hehe, winks*)

Did I ever mention that one of the schools we presented in is CHUNGCHENG? It feels so good to be back, introducing my beautiful school to my teammates. Most importantly, Professor was there to evaluate us. Nervous sia... Because of the strong support I had from my team, I didn't even feel a tinge of nervousness! Hehe. The chemistry I had from my co-host, Danny, wow wow wow. I feel so happy! (Super shag after that.) CCHMS was damn ON lah. They were so cooperative, and enthusiastic, it was a right choice for Prof to come down to CCHMS! I am so proud of CCHMS! Yayy! It was exciting to meet the teachers, especially when they give you feedback on your presentation:) I don’t really know MsChan very well, despite the fact that she taught me for a year? The point is, she stayed throughout though she did not plan to and yes, hehehe, she said it was engaging and interactive. HOHOHO! A big thank you to MrsCheng for giving me a chance to come down to give an assembly talk! (Apparently it was written under activities that an ex-student was giving the talk. Wow!)

Presenting to you, the cameraman! :D

taking a break!

2008-10-13T22:30:00.003+08:00

One paper down! HEHEHE SO HAPPY LAH! Cause I was able to crap my way through!

Need to chiong for biz law, clear 2 more presentation and 2 schools' asembly talks and this week will be over! YAYYYY! So hectic hor? Thanks to prof who is almost finishing the entire biz law textbk, such that my midterm is on almost the entire bk, about 10chpts. Win already. Salute weiting for surviving till wed!

I miss the boy who is now doing his guard duty :[

TWC

2008-10-08T18:50:00.002+08:00

:( AM IN SCHOOL SINCE EARLY MORNING.
WHY DO I FEEL THAT I AM MORE BUSY AND STRESSED UP DURING RECESS WEEK? Feels like clubbing the night away, but haix...work work work. I feel bad:( But I don't wanna sacrifice social life either! Not as if I started reading up, or studying for midterms next week right? Haha. Thanks man. I feel so bad towards my family, boyfriend and friends.

I want to see you! :<

规划人生

2008-09-29T12:27:00.004+08:00

原来，一切并非想像中的简单。童话故事里的情节，是个美丽的梦境，让人向往，又让人感憾。其实，我不懂我的心，所以没资格要求什么。因为口直心快，因为顾虑面子，因为老爱口是心非，你被我搞得一头雾水，我则不清楚自己为何会选择这样，为何会说那番话，为何会那样处事待人，不清楚自己到底想要些什么。人与人之间的关系好复杂，让人抓不着，怎么理也理不清头绪。我的天啊！总有一天我会爆炸吧？越是在乎，越是介意，越是容易引起不必要的磨擦，越是令人心烦意燥。模不透你在想什么，搞不清我要什么，这样的一出剧一点也不有趣。

昨晚，我做了一个梦。在梦里，我的心停止了一下，那不是惊讶，不是兴奋，而是莫名的伤感。你知道我需要什么。

我心荡漾。

堆积如山的工作夺取了我的私生活，少了交际活动，我似乎缺少了什么。从什么时候开始，我厌倦了主动约人出去，从什么时候开始，我忘了找回我那简单幼稚的快乐？我变了。那你呢？

将我的生活还给我！我不喜欢将青春全耗在学业上。我需要一股自我争取的动力，我需要抛开枷锁，回到最原始的地方。我不是不开心，只是累了，病了。。。只是想停下脚步，回头看一看，这一个多月以来，我的生活到底是怎样过的。你知道我在说\什么吗？因为我也糊涂了。想找个靠岸歇一会儿，等明睡醒了再说。

我要规划我的人生，你有什么建议吗？

lost in reality

2008-09-27T00:34:00.002+08:00

I don't like to talk about this, cause I choose to believe in humanity, though it seemed unlikely in society. But I still choose to trust, and believe if I were to treat somebody nice, they will do so to me, which is highly subjective. I live in simplicity, I don't bother thinking. Escapist or what, I believe in hopes. Thus my heart sank when we discuss about it, and I fear the differences though I know you meant nothing but concern. I'm just not happy arguing about it. Cause I know that no matter what, you won't be able to convinced me, nobody would. It just makes me feel so upset at how hard it is to trust, even at this stage when we're still schooling. The thoughts of doubting others, just make me so unreal, so hypocritcal. I don't feel happy, I don't feel me. I'm lost in life, and confused over where differences will lead us to.

need to sleep

2008-09-26T11:26:00.002+08:00

I must have been so deprived of sleep such that I woke up so late, something very unlikely of me and am still suffering the effect of wanting to sleep. YAWN!

week5

2008-09-23T23:38:00.010+08:00

There’s so much work to be done and I am procrastinating. Hehe. That’s bad, like seriously. OMG. It also accounts to why I don’t blog as often. But last week, I was very happy. Despite the stress in workload, the numerous meetings I have to attend, I was in good spirit.

Tuesday was a rather conflicting day. Rushed home to buy presents, chiong here chiong there, at night was when all the emotions start piling up. It’s our 1mth together as a couple and the day Yeongchyn’s leaving. OMG. Haix. I tried very hard to hold back those tears, really but it is just too difficult for me. Firstly, I’m very emotional. Secondly, she’s my best friend and I miss her. I’m super proud of the presents I’ve got for her with the help of Mel and the mega photo frame is damn pretty. Hmm…anyway our celebration still turned out fine and I’m really very happy and surprised. Hehe.
:)
<3
Mega work. Nice right?
Take care!
I had a great time hanging out with my Academic Writing classmates on Thursday. Okay, maybe it’s just the 2 affinity groups, plus crasher, ZheHan. We are made up of people somewhat of the same pattern, and quite a lot of them are from poly which makes us the cheena group! Hence, it is a redundant question to even ask why I fit in so well. OPPS! Somehow, I realized I like to talk to poly people, cause those closer to me often converse in Chinese and I felt so comfortable with them. Jialat. But surprisingly, a few of my SMU friends commented that I speak well in English which is like, OMG, cause I always pay so much attention at how I articulate, the pronunciation and the wrong tenses used to the extent that it lowers my confidence level. Oh, anyway what we did was that the 7 of us went to eat sushi at RI BEN CHUN. We ate a total of 26plates of sushi and took super funny shots with the tall stake of plates… I had my salmon! WHAHAHA! This is the first time I joined them for lunch considering they meet up after every AW class which is 2 times a week and it was week5 when I joined. Haha. Am feeling so guilty, just like how I rarely joined Leroy and co for dinner on Mon and lunch on Tue that I have no idea where the FTB’s group usual bench is. JIALAT.

On Friday, my LTB group met our client-NCPC to talk about our project. Everything when on smoothly and we even had freebies lah. They were so nice, all thanks to Zhiyang. Then went home before heading back to school for meeting at 9pm. Wow, super no life man, IT’S FRIDAY! Guess what? I realized for this week, we met up 4times already. OMG, see the amount of work to be done! Heart attack uhh.

On Sat, my TWC group went ubi to do research on bikes as there were a lot of bike repair shops in that area. They were 2hours late lah. Leroy and I practically stoned, but managed to check out a cool corner in Singpost. It’s been a long time since I went there. The trip was enlightening and I am super glad that Jeremy drove. Grandma’s birthday dinner at night was fine. Aiya, our family is too big. We reserved 5tables at the restaurant and that was only sufficient for those that attended. With the addition of the babies next year, our population will increase and OMG, it’s harder to interact with everyone! I can bear to imagine.

Off to work….
I’m super glad I’ve got a great helper :)

S13 Farewell Gathering.

Besties:)

mixed up

2008-09-17T20:31:00.004+08:00

Okay.
My best friend flew yesterday. I am super upset over that.
I also had a memorable 1month celebration. My boyfriend is so sweet.
And now, I got laughed at when my friend found out that I came from NJC yet I am stuck in the academic writing module. Thanks huh?
Life is so full of ups and downs.
I can’t comprehend biz law and can’t bother to even concentrate anymore.
Anyway, fyi, I’m typing this in class now.
I WANT TO GO HOME NOW.
I WANT MY BEAUTY SLEEP!

Finally over and done with!

2008-09-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

PHEW!

BIZ LAW PROJECT IS FINALLY OVER! I’m so thankful for that cause it was hell lots of work and unknowingly I found myself clearing up all the shit that others had done which simply pissed me off. I’m really grateful to MELISSA TAN SWEE SAN for voluntarily helping me out, without that I wouldn’t have the confidence to even stand up there to present. I LOVE MEL TAN! A friend in need is a friend indeed. I seriously think that my reputation in school is ruined after the presentation. That bimbo act was so…embarrassing! Gosh! Mel still claimed that it wasn’t an act, I had it in me. NO WAY MAN!

The past few nights felt awful cabbing home each night, realizing how expensive my school fees had become and how the lights were all out when you reached home past midnight from school, no one to talk to, and you just continue to work till wee hours. Having 4-5hours of sleep each night, I guess I became physically weaker cause I’ve been relying so much on my medication these days that I couldn’t remember when was the day I didn’t even have to touch it. Thankfully, I get to sleep slightly longer now, not that it makes much a difference but I think I need that energy to press on. HAHA. You know what, on Tuesday when I haven’t even submitted my Assign1 for Academic Writing, Prof informed us that Assign2 is due in 16days time. THANKS UH. I’m feeling so bad that I’ve missed 2 LTB meeting for Biz law and considering the fact that I must go for the meeting on Mon, I will then miss 2 TWC meetings in a row. Seriously, what’s with Monday nights man?

Yeongchyn’s leaving next Tuesday, sobx…so fast and I didn’t even have time to meet her these days. Hopefully many would turn up for this Sunday farewell lunch? I need to start working on my presents. Hmm….

Maybe it’s the drowsiness, maybe I just wanted to sleep. I became grumpy and I simply couldn’t stand that wait. Now I don’t know how to continue from there on……

Stressed

2008-09-09T00:38:00.002+08:00

I'm so stressed.
Biz law is killing me lah. I don't know what Prof's trying to say and then she gives us one week to come up with a written report and presentation out of a sudden. 30% of our grades leh! WTH. So sudden and 20pgs is like super a lot can? I WANT TO DIE! With 2 other deadlines on wed, zzz...... I actually had like TWC, LTB, BIZ LAW meetings all at the same time tonight and i went for biz law which is more urgent cause there's still a lot undone. Haiz. By the time I reached home it was already 11.30pm lah! :( I am so upset!

I've got lots more project uncompleted, lots of readings left untouched, and more school, personal related work to settle. AHHH! SOMEBODY SAVE ME!

I need you!

Would you be there?

2008-09-02T23:28:00.004+08:00

Would You Be There by Redwan Ali

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay.
Would you stand by me,
Let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender love and care.
Would you die for me,
Would you run with me,
And never look back.

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away?

Would you be there......

当全世界都在关心我的时候，
我反儿觉得自己变得很冷漠。
强颜欢笑，不知所措。
我的心很灰。
也许。。。

PHOTOS

2008-09-02T11:24:00.001+08:00

Life's hectic, and I haven't been having 6hrs of sleep for I don't know since when. Ha ha. Thanks uh. I need motivation to work cause I ain't doing anything productive. Jialat. Maybe I should keep myself in isolation one day just to get things done. I'll hardly succeed though. Ha ha. Anyway, Broadcast&Entertainment Camp which was held last weekend rawkz!

Sharing some pics of what happened the past few weeks:
Freshmen Teambonding Camp
ATTACK! Muahaha!
Human washing machine.
TAU-POK!
SMU JUMP!
FLASHERS!

Tunneling.

Convocation 2008
Lena.

The couple.

FLASHERS
Faci Junwei.

SMU BUSINESS!
SAM!

Ernie and Peiquan!
MEL TAN!

Ashley, the girl I always hang out with.

Smart right?

HELLO~

Mus's birthday celebrations

Yin's bro, WT, Tong, Mus, Yin.

The couples and Mus.

Cam whoring after class

My group of friends in school.

AHHHH!!!!!!!!

FLASHERS!

Don't mess with us!

Mus&Sok's birthday celebrations

Sok, Siyu, Mus, WT, Rou, Stir!

Superheros!

BBQ-ing in the rains

August babies!

Happy Birthday!

Tong and Mus.
6gurlfriends:)

The couples and Mus!
Birthday GIRL!

Heineken & more Heinekens!

thanks uhh.

2008-09-01T23:00:00.003+08:00

Threw my tempers at innocents today. (That's bad, sorry!) Feeling so pissed that my wireless had problems connecting just now. Couldn't concentrate on finishing at least 1chpt of "The World is Flat". Doesn't help to realise how much work needs to be done. A stiff, pain neck make things worst. Feel like going boxing now, seriously.

MY NECK!!!!!

I DONT LIKE ASSIGNMENTS

2008-08-27T00:22:00.004+08:00

I DONT LIKE ASSIGNMENTS.
SERIOUSLY.

Firstly, I feel so brain-dead. It stopped functioning since the last paper of A's. I need to fix those wires in me, hopefully they still connect. Secondly, I simply suck when it comes to English. I have so much difficulties trying to comprehend, express and rebute. AHHH. Why can't we mug in Chinese? That's ridiculous.

Don't ever be like that again.
I'm so gonna miss you for the rest of this week cause I'll be damn packed till sat.
:<

Happy One Week!

2008-08-24T00:39:00.003+08:00

Happy One Week!

school

2008-08-22T01:13:00.001+08:00

Weiting is stressed because her thesis statement got rejected by Prof Tan! Jialat lah! AHHH. I fear for academic writing man!

No school tomorrow but I’ve got project meeting cause everyone is damn on about everything which is scaring me and I felt like I am in deep shit. Gosh, first week only leh! Somemore I am home late almost every night can? Cause I kept driving and yesterday was Wednesday where I had night classes, Business Law by Prof Ho who works in Court of Appeal and thus lesson was at 6.30-9.45pm. Cool rights? And I’m pretty interested in this mods, hopefully my working background can help me familiarize with the Singapore’s legal system?

I am seriously broke! Town is bad cause I shopped so often and today was with Sam and Mel. We had fun lah! Hehe, I’m starting to like Sam more and more and yes, gym next thurs! MEL BRING YOUR STUFF! Tomorrow's exciting. CCA day, FTB group outing, meeting him etc...then more fun this weekend. OH, draft to be handed in next week. SHIT!

Her heart sank.
She didn’t know why she was so affected.
She guess that she’s just still insecure and in confusion.
But she’s not regretting it.
She’s glad they met up.

school!

2008-08-19T20:24:00.000+08:00

Yawn. I am trying my very best to look interested in what the prof is saying. But I just can’t understand what he’s trying to say. This must have been why I was never an Arts Student. Political Philosophy just isn’t my cup of tea. I don’t mind reading up on politics and philosophy just that I don’t know what they mean when you put the two together. Gosh, the rest are like really interested and I seriously doubt my capability, how come I couldn’t comprehend a thing? It’s really a wrong choice to bid so high for this course. I WANT TO DROP! SERIOUSLY. Better do so before BOSS2 closes so I can get those e$ back :( I’m sorry lah, I know the prof is interesting and funny but I just can’t help but scream “SAVE ME”! But I like the feeling of having Mel next to me in class. We’ll work this out.

Currently feeling pretty comfortable adjusting to the seminar style way of teaching. It’s interesting and interactive. I haven’t bothered much about school life cause I was so busy rushing for SOS outing, Mus’s birthday celebration yesterday and today was a good day spent with Mel, then seeing the doctor and I’m leaving home soon to drive to Changi Airport to pick my cousin and aunt who are back from their Shanghai trip! I was supposed to join them one loh….haix, it’s okay! I can’t wait to drive :)

Shall replies the many tags here!

To stir and rou: Thanks babe:) Seeya this sat!
To yc: Thanks uh…esp now they also know. Diao!
To tong: Hehe, thanks girl! Erm, no problem, just be careful, haha…it was so funny lah.
To queen&hsin: Loves. Thanks! I quit the club, not you kick me off. And since when was I even a member? Yh steal my queen lah :(
To mel: ZOUK!?! Are you kidding? Erm…okay I’ll make sure I’ll find more people when I call you out? Aiyo, nevermind lahh :)

This is my boyfriend!

2008-08-18T00:10:00.008+08:00

It all started with a forfeit. I had no idea it was coming, no idea what was going on. But I guess love just happens? It feels so funny to use this word, cause I am still not used to the fact that we are now where we are. Abandoning all those worries in me, all the "what ifs" I asked, all the fears I had... It was fast, too fast? I am not sure if this is important anymore but what I am clearly aware of is that I'm happy when I'm with him. No matter how tough it would be to start a relationship now when school's starting and he's still serving his NS, we'll make it works. Hopefully. It seems too good to be true:)

This was my forfeit for losing the match but now it's no longer just a forfeit anymore:)

This is my boyfriend! :)

insecure.

2008-08-15T23:25:00.003+08:00

I AM A QUALIFIED DRIVER :) MUAHAHAHA!

I'm super duper happy! WHAHAHA! I want to jump!

Hehe, the cars my friends got me!

I LOVE CARS, BUT I LOVE PLANES EVEN MORE. Too bad I can't be a pilot. Haha.
And I just drove to Hougang tonight lah. So scary lah...they keep complaining about me such that I can't concentrate:( OMG. Auto cars are just so so different!

This is tough.
Cause I'm scared, and you scare me too.
Do you think we can get through this together?
It seems so uncertain, and I don't know if it all came too fast.
I need some reassurance.

小鹿乱撞!

2008-08-13T22:19:00.003+08:00

坏蛋！现在人家需要特别的专心，你却突如其来的扰乱我的思绪。
要我怎样嘛？
我正在认真的思考，因为我害怕。

:)

Random-ness

2008-08-12T11:11:00.004+08:00

Bondue2.

Weiting, Leroy, Ashley.

Iris Mummy!

Peiquan!
Wet from Sentosa.

Karyn, long time no see.

National Day, we had a gathering at my aunt's place, cause she was praying and there were lots of good food there. Haha, yes it is not praying for National Day, stupid Zhanhao to came up with that question. Plain old gossiping with cousins and MrLee(don't know how should I address him, he's one of my cousins husband). Isabelle is so cute, look so like her mummy. We had discussion over the X,Y and earlier generations. Haha. The gap is interesting and I really love my cousins for understanding me and standing by my side while my mom complained about me. With my character, I shouldn't have been the eldest in the family lah. I needed examples, support. Anyway, after much laughters, I left for Kallang Lesiure Park, a place I really like. Quiet, big, full of entertainment:) We were stupid, my friend suggested that we watch fireworks, since we're there. Yet with the wrong infor given from friends, we waited at 8.30pm and an hour later we realised, hey there were nothing! It was at 8pm lah, and we called him somewhat before 8. Thanks uhh! Haha. SO malu-ating can? We really waited. Nevermind. Had fun at arcade and yea, we played stupid games that cost so much, haha. So fun! Queuing behind us were kids and excuse me, how old are you? Blahx! :P

Fireworks in my dreams!

Haha, lousy POk!

Give me salmon and I'll be happy for nuts.

Mummy's birthday some time ago!

lost

2008-08-09T12:12:00.005+08:00

A rather mixed feelings after I came back from Bondue Camp.
I don't know how to describe it. I miss my friends i guess. Missing the 6girlfriends, missing Queenie, Yeongchyn, Yuehhsin etc. If we could live life again, would anything have changed? I'm glad to have Mel and Sam with me in school. I forsee us doing a lot of things together in the future. I'm happy that we clicked well with Sam. And my new friends.

Bondue showed me a culture difference, and how important a group is in order for you to enjoy your camp. 2nights ago, things went out of hand at camp, then did I realise how different some can be, not forgetting the fact that we come from different colleges. Thankyou Iris(female faci) for looking after us all this while and the girls in group2. On the other hand, Freshmen Teambonding Camp last week made a larger impact on me. The things I took home with. I never realised how important planning , communication and trust were till then, and I am grateful to have JunWei as my faci now that I've been through both camps. Though he broke the first rule of being a faci-not to be emotionally attached to the freshies, and how disappointed he was when we failed rafting, he's the best! I'll never forget forming, storming, norming and performing. These values were useful:)
All in all, I still prefer FTB over Bondue, and yes, the Flashers of course.

The mr.Perfect in my eyes is no longer perfect.

I wish to have you by my side all this while, and to be part of your life. But it's impossible as life goes on, things changed, people changed, hopefully that feeling don't.

OMG, I just can't express how much I missed the people I am missing now. Hello, can you feel it? Haha.

The smell of alcohol makes me pulk.

Project SOS

2008-08-05T21:28:00.008+08:00

PROJECT SUMMER ON SANDS, a CIP Project that I embarked on 2 weeks ago.
I had fun and I love Group6 :)
Wanyi, Abby.
Group6!
My CDC seniors!
Chormin!
Sam:)

Peiquan, me, sam, cass, wanyi, abby.

Faci in red- Vannessa&Xander!

Our castle, our 3 days of hardwork!
Bridge time!
SMU jump!
:)

Nice right?

Us and our baby castle, the height of our faci's eye.

Peiquan, Chengen, Adeline, Abby, Wt.

Stretch!

At work...

Washing our feet in the rain.

Fantastic!

S'pore's Avenue of Stars. Haha!

There are no strangers in the world, only friends you haven met

2008-08-04T21:21:00.003+08:00

"There are no strangers in the world, only friends you haven met."

I shall bare this in mind when school starts cause I am not sure how great this timetable I've got is. Haha. Hopefully I've got someone I know in every class?
Well, that's a bit too ambitious!

is glad!

2008-08-04T01:13:00.003+08:00

Glad that my computer was retrived.
Glad that my FTB group turned out to be fine.
Glad that I enjoyed FTB and is missing my new friends.
Glad that biz Flash(ers) are having lunch and going for academic briefing on Tuesday.
Glad that Flash(ers) exchanged comments in my ugly book.
Glad that I watched "MUMMY" today.
Glad that we took neoprints today.
Glad that I know you cared.
Glad that......I'm just feeling glad.

5th chalet

2008-07-28T10:55:00.005+08:00

“give me a thousand reasons to not love 06S13 and i'll still love them” – SHULIN

WEITING – “I totally agree with that! Cause they’re irresistible.”

Let’s put it this way, 8months after graduation, and we people are still keen on keeping up the tradition of holding chalets like nobody’s business! THIS’S THE FIFTH ONE ALREADY. And I’m glad despite the hard time we had fitting in everyone’s schedules, 13 out of 24 turned up! That’s a pretty high percentile you know? Though it might not be as fun as usual, 2D1N is short lah. Still, I simply love having these people around! :) For the first time, we had a successful BBQ with more than sufficient food thanks to Ruichao for “secretly” dumping extra 3packets of meat into our trolley. In the end we wasted food. Aiyo. As usual, I automatically became in charge of money for no reason. Haha. Well, as we all step into the next phrase of our lives, we’ll bravely take on challenges and becoming a stronger person then we’ll meet together in our 6th chalet to share the joy, sorrow and excitement we had in our different schools. Let’s make it a deal, cause I know some of ya had already been saying, this December, we’ll have another chalet, with NSmen and our 3 friends who are going or have already gone overseas!

Preparation!

See my nail? Hehe.

Slacker watching TV while they worked.
NUS, SMU, NTU!

My right-hand man!
Cute Vanessa:)
Yummy.

Our neighbour opposite gave us his birthday cake to thank us for giving him food. Haha.
Say CHEEZE!

Taiwan

2008-07-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

我很想念在台湾的时光！超棒的！这团只有10个人，我们占据了40%，大家都很友善，凡事好商量，有好吃的东西都会分享，所以一路上我们一起玩得很愉快！而且很巧的是，团里都是校友，超巧的，虽然说我那小学校友大我们10多岁，但是小学老师的关系吧，像个大小孩，和我们3位小朋友很和得来，他的太太则是我最佳的购物伙伴！绕了台湾一圈，浪费了很多时间在车程，一上车我就会自动睡着，不然一定闷死了。谁叫我每晚都看电视到三更半夜才睡，在加上我们一群人会一起搭的士去购物。好搞笑，一群因旅游才聚在一块的陌生人，在陌生的国家一起血拼直三更，超爽！哈哈，出去散散心，才发现原来有些东西对你有多重要，有些人在你心中又是什么。大家还说好以后要一起相约出国旅行！:)
高雄！

垦丁！

绿岛！

花莲！

台北！

台中！

2008-07-24T21:27:00.004+08:00

That feeling haunts me again, and it sucks. What am I thinking? What do I want to achieve in life? I know this is annoying, and yes, I'll irritate the people around me with this and eventually lose them. What am I doing to do? Can I choose to re-live my life? I guess I never really understood myself.

I'm aching.

不够勇敢！

2008-07-20T12:12:00.005+08:00

因为不够勇敢，所以自寻烦恼，而变得不够快乐。
但昨晚，放空似的在人群中舞动，让它们随着我的跳跃而抛掷脑后的那一霎那间，我很享受无犹的快感。是个性在闹别扭，我很清楚。至少昨晚我很快乐，但那是在我睡着之前。套句朋友说的话，在那种情况下，人的个性好无遮拦的表现无遗。因为是朋友，所以对我来说那其实很可爱，而我则被逗得一直傻笑！

Life has to go on......

2008-07-18T11:18:00.002+08:00

Woots!
A long entry without pictures. My camera is no good, I need a NEW CAMERA!

Went for Matriculation with Mel and Samantha last Tuesday. Wa…getting panic attack already. Everything is so fast paced, even the people. The way they speak is like bullet train? OMG. Kia kia leh. But we came too late so didn’t managed to finish all 12stations. AND OMG THE PEOPLE THERE DRESS UNTIL SUPER THE NICE LAH. Don’t know where they going sia. Scary. I felt so out of place. AHH. I hope I’ll do fine in school:(

On Thursday, a group of us went back to NJ to collect our certificates but they told us to come back again? Wth. We very free hor? See lah, the one that give me wrong information! Hehe. But it feels good to gather so many of us, (there were about 7?) having lunch with Mrs Kong. Ahh…I miss her Chem lessons! How we always stayed back every Tuesday which was supposed to be our early day and immersed ourselves into the world of Organic Chem! :( Have you wondered what it’ll be like if we were all going to the same school? It’ll be so exciting, going camps together as if it’s just another chalet. Well, it’s not possible lah. We’re all heading to another pharse of life and have not idea where it’ll take us. But I hope as years passed, we’ll still have a chalet at least one every year and yes, catch up, laugh at the little things that used to give us our S13 culture, the “Manners lei”, “Noob” etc.

Yes, we had our 5th Class Chalet with an attendance of 10girls, 3boys out of a class of 24. Hehe! We’re just so crazy over chalets. Finally, we made BBQ a success by having sufficient food and charcoal to last us! Yayy, credits to the charcoal starter and the NTUC shoppers. It was a hectic day leh, because I had to go for my SMU Project Summer on Sands team-bonding session and then rushed to the east side. Well, it was great still but overall, I didn’t enjoy as much as the previous chalets. Maybe due to the huge restrained I felt from the cramp room of Coasta Sands and that many knocked out early. Instead of playing more bridge, we had fun playing my Happy Family and Asshole Daidee. Hehe. See lah, who still laugh at me for buying it? It was disappointing that we cancelled our gathering the next day but well, the attendance rate was too low. Hopefully, we’ll all meet up soon. Like how we make effort to meet up on our birthday, 06/13/2008. I came after I landed in Singapore lah. One day, okay?

This week was filled with more CIP, making more friends in SMU and realizing there are so many cool people out there who knew exactly what they want and that a lot of my CCHMS friends are there too! Ohh and how I went back to Subcourt for a visit, feeling embarrassed by my slippers attire! Haha, ohh well, more CIP this weekend! Save me!

is a productive conversation

2008-07-14T23:28:00.002+08:00

Weiting is happy tonight cause she heard something from someone who made her surprised and yayyy.....is reassured.

I've got so much to blog, but I need time. Cause I'm already filled up with school activities even before school actually starts. Haha! I'll update soon :)

EMO-ING

2008-07-12T20:21:00.002+08:00

She's an EMO kid.

She can't think for herself, doesn't knows what she really wants, keep changing her mind and worries so much that she's not happy at all, rather she's stressed up. Will she be able to survive the harsh reality out there? Her important pillar of support will leave her soon, leading different lifestyles, meeting different groups of friends and yes, she's a bit lost from there.
She can't make up her mind and need someone to talk to!
Whatever. She's troublesome.

无法将你抛掷于千里之外，在越陷越深的情况下，我心荡漾。

把信心秀出来！

2008-07-08T09:53:00.001+08:00

将那信心秀出来，把那讨厌的包袱丢掉！
那一刻，你那么的拽，现在也一定可以。
放松啦，我挺你！
给我一场漂亮的演出！

心魔

2008-07-07T21:17:00.001+08:00

我的心魔。
一股沉重的压力，让人感到无奈。我失眠了。哈哈！
安啦！

谢谢你一直都在。

我好兴奋。

狂躁症

2008-07-04T19:26:00.001+08:00

我的心好烦。
我想我得了狂躁症。

I'm tagged!

2008-07-03T16:16:00.002+08:00

Okays, I've been tagged a couple of time and hasn't been doing the quiz, so shall do this one since it's pretty short.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
It depends on how I found out about it. I guess I’ll appear to be calm before I started yelling at him, telling him it’s over. No matter how I react, it will eventually be a breakup lah. If not what?

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
OMG. I’m excited. I want to be a director, directing my own script written Chinese drama! All the annoying human relationships, miscellaneous issues involved, bring it on man! I’m ready to conquer all odds (provided I even got to that stage…haha).

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Ehh I don’t know. How about, a long white gown, pretty beach with clean blue sea, best wishes from my loved ones, a romantic video clip about how we got together, live band, nice cocktails and end it all with a sunset and a dance party?

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
OBVIOUSLY. When was I even clear where I was heading to, OPPS. Or rather I call it fear, I fear to fall like before.

5. What is your ideal lover like?
HE LOVES ME. He loves his family and my family, committed to the relationship, xi xin, caring and is there for me all the time. He knows when I’m unhappy without me telling him, he knows what I’m thinking, he’s mature, knows clearly where he’s heading and why he does what he does. Most importantly, loves me for who I am. Oh dear, is that too demanding?

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Ehh..how about being loved by someone you loved?

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Huh? How will I know? When my heart says he’s the one?

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Gosh, give up. It’s easy to say so but well, I’ll try. And if he’s a friend of mine, I’ll continue to be his good friend, hopefully.

9. Is being tagged fun?
I haven’t done this for some time, it’s tiring I think.

10. How do you see yourself in ten years' time?
I’ll be working in the media/hotel industry, married and coping with work and family, looking after my kids, enjoying quality family time with my family.

11. Who are currently the most important people to you?
There’s more than 1. My family members, that’s for sure. And my best best friends and my buddy.

12. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
Haha, she’s a nice friend of mine that’s always so understanding.

13. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Married but poor:)

14. What's the first thing you do every morning?
Hug my bolster tightly and lai chuang.

15. Would you give it all in a relationship?
Yes, if not why bother starting one?

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Quite unlikely that I’ll fall in love with 2 people simultaneously unless if u consider falling in love with the tv characters?

17. What type of friends do you like?
The ones that accept me for who I am, is always there for me and knows me inside out.

18. What type of friends do you dislike?
The ones that backstabs, a hypocrite and the ones that forces me to follow their ideologies/behaviors.

I'm not tagging, anyone who read this and feels like doing the quiz can do it.
DONE:)

In need of cash!

2008-07-01T23:21:00.001+08:00

I DID IT MYSELF! NICE RIGHT? These are 2 lucky friends(Mel&Ruichao) that I happened to be meeting that day after work:)

I realised my earned salary is depleting fast. Jialat. I should stop going out so often and spending so much, especially on food. Hehe. But I've been living quite a balanced lifestyle I would say? In less than a week I've been to East Coast Park twice and today we even cycled more than 5km? We almost made our way to Changi if it wasn't due to time constraint. Haha. Gosh, I need income! And yes, that wouldn't come from Mom. Sianx.

I'm feeling bissfully happy these days :)

2008-06-27T13:33:00.002+08:00

Okays. I don't know what went wrong but when i woke up, I couldn't get off the bed cause I couldn't control my neck and after much trembles and strength, I finally got off my bed and yes, I think I suffered either a sprained or stiff neck unknowingly. Gosh. Does that means I can not work this weekend? (FAT HOPE!)

Currently I do not have to work during weekdays and I'm feeling more and more like a "housewife". Just take this morning for example. I was bored doing nothing so I changed the bedsheets my brother's and my bed and I rarely keep the clothes without being told. Usually I let them rot in the sun for the whole day until I stop being lazy and keep them in when the sun goes down. Now they are all folded and placed in the respectives wardrobe and I got the urge to iron the rest of the uniforms and going-out-clothes. Jialat. This is what happens when you got nothing better to do. That's also why when Mel calls me around 8plus every night, her first question would be "Ironing uh?". Actually, don't you think it is a so xin fu to iron the clothes of your loved ones when you get married next time? And the reason I like ironing is because I get to seat down, watch tv and do my housework. Hehe. The most relaxing housework and entertaining chore I would say. Nevermind, I shall happily finish ironing before I go out for my movie and kbox till the wee hour tonight:)

I am going to fix my neck soon! (Hopefully?)

2008-06-26T22:22:00.002+08:00

I'm seriously scared of dogs.
And my fall today was due to it:(
I guess I'll never overcome my fear.

I had a deep, intellectual, serious talk with Mel&RuiChao over dinner yesterday. Serious as in talking about serious issues in life, like perspectives, behaviour, personalities, circumstances...analaysing the various events that happened for the past 1.5years in NJC. Yes, I admit I'm emo and think to much kind of person. Haha. But mild emo don't impact my life. It's just parts and parcels of life! I think if I emo, I will turly appreciate happiness when I'm happy and as much as I emo, I am easily happy over little things like an ice cream treat, a good day out. Well, that thinking too much has always been a problem and I'm trying to not think that much too though there are limited improvements thus far. I like these kind of chats where we "stopped" life, look back and reflect on what actually happened and what could have done better. But I doubt we have so much time in life to do so most of the time. Through that, I'm really grateful to have Mel with me, embarking on a new life with SMU and Ruichao to confide and trust in:)

Good friends come in quality not quantity!
Surprisingly, I unintentionally shut myself away from some people for no reason. It's just another I-am-too-lazy-to-explain-time/I-am-stoning-in-my-own-little-world time. I meant no harm! Hahah! :p

HAIX!

2008-06-24T13:59:00.004+08:00

This is what happens when you are not working and get bored at home and when your mummy only sent you for art lessons till you were primary6.

I LOVE MY DADDY AND MUMMY! THEY RAWK LIKE CRAZY I TELL YOU. I GOT THE MOST COMICAL AND INTERESTING AND SUPPORTIVE FAMILY IN THE WORLD:)

I'm sorry I yelled at you. Sometimes I think I'm so unreasonable. You've always been there for me, like seriously there. You cared so much and always listen to what I got to say. When everybody else is busy, you will always make time for me yet I'm throwing my temper at you and I didn't gave me my 100% attention at times either. I'm sorry! I know you're trying to make me feel better, but sometimes, it just turn out the other way round. I don't know why I acted the way I did. Oh man, I just want to tell you, I didn't mean anything. I treasure you my friend!

AHHHHH!

2008-06-23T22:53:00.005+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Weiting is stressed!
Or rather, she is just plain nervous :<

人心难料!

2008-06-22T19:56:00.003+08:00

人心难料。其实，一点也不奇怪，我连自己也搞不清楚。哈哈。我就是我，我知道我在做什么，信不信有你。没有必要交代一切，了解我，就能明白我在想什么。这样就够了。有些东西，多不一定就是好。就像简单就是美一样。

现在心情有点自High，那天吃Swenson's Earthquake的时候也是，就是发自内心的感到幸福，也许是第一次吃的关系。哈哈。无聊的人！管他的，我就是开心你要我怎样？我疯了。

I WANT MY RED CAR!

DecisionOne

2008-06-20T23:12:00.002+08:00

A long time ago, my term of service at DecisionOne ended. Though it was a short stay, I learnt a lot. The hectic environment forces you to multitask and how I was taught the new terms and software. I'll miss SPH booking, ET-ing.... How we surfed You-tube when David Cook won. Haha. I didn't really had sufficient time to bond with my colleagues but I enjoyed my lunch mates company. But I'm damn broke because of them too, they eat expensive stuff leh! Haha. I'm glad I survived:)
The AE's office.
Designers' area.
My window view.
My desk!

Everyone except the boss, Yip and Kelvin who was sick.

making decisions

2008-06-17T22:25:00.005+08:00

I was crazy today, to make such an important decision within such a short time and how I forced myself to decide, to the extent I shocked a close friend of mine who couldn't helped but screamed at what I said. It's like a little girl grown up kind of situation. She's making her own directions in life, crafting her own path. (She had some help from phone calls and sms-es actually, not forgetting the struggles she had at work with 18kids screaming around her!) WOW. For a fickle and indecisive mind like mine, it's a big wu-ha. I ACTUALLY MADE MY OWN DECISION IN LESS THAN HALF A DAY. Clap please! See I told you I was crazy. Well, Mom played a part in forcing me to grow up with all her scoldings and insults to wake me up. I should thank her man. Still, I'm not firm enough, my heart is still tempted to regret. NO GIRL, YOU STICK WITH WHAT YOU CHOSE. COMEON, YOU CAN DO IT. Don't listen to others opinions, you live your own life leh. Alamak. I'm blabbering nonsense man! Okay, so what I did was to withdraw my appeal when NUS biz called me for an interview tomorrow. Wa....please reserve your comments. I don't wish to lose my stand anymore. And yes, goodbye NUS, Weiting's embarking on a new journey in SMU biz, she'll be fine, hopefully! :)

过去的就让他过去吧！这次的失败对我来说除了感激，感恩，感慨，感谢，我什么也说不出来。能克服一切，要归功于家人，朋友。。。让你们担心了，抱歉！
在那差一点点的当儿，我更加珍惜我们的友谊！:)

HongKong Trip

2008-06-15T20:52:00.003+08:00

Paiseh for being so lagg. People have been asking abt my HongKong Trip months ago, but I'm only updating when I'm back from Taiwan.HEHE:D

At Changi Airport.

DayOne

23March2008, I set off on a 6D5N trip to HongKong with my best friends, Siyu and Mustika. We're like some見不得光的人, 5.50am is a super weird timing to board a plane lah! And we'll reach Singapore on out return trip at 12pm lah. Win already! Haha. Daddy sent us to the airport. It was pretty obvious that he's worried about leaving the 3 crazy and blur girls alone in a foreign land. Mummy on the other hand was super relax. On 22March after I rushed home after I passed my advanced theory and finished my driving lessons to pack my luggage(comeon man, I haven't even started, that week has been a pretty hectic one for me), Mummy started questioning why was I so kan jiong about packing. Then she realised I was flying early that morning. She has gotten all the dates mixed up. 第一次和朋友一起旅行,沒有父母的照料,一切由自己包辦,對我來說是個突破。The first time I flew with Budget Airlines and it was really budget loh. I couldn't sleep and ended up writing diary on the plane. Haha. This adventure is so cool man!

Our plane-3K691.

Mus and I in the shutterbus.
Yes, we have arrived at HONGKONG AIRPORT! We had to take this shutterbus once we alighted from our plane to the airport. So cartoon, I never did something like this. And in this bus, there were no seats. Why do we need it anyway? It's such a short ride. We boarded the public bus to where our Hostel is located, ChungKing Mansion. I tell you, it was really tough getting on the bus dragging out luggages. There is this racks for you to put your luggages so that it doesn't fall off and because we were the last in the queue, everyone else took the middle and bottom shelves and we had to pull, push whatever you consider it to be, to place our heavy luggages on the highest shelf. Okay, one luggage weighs about 11kg but still we needed 2 people to carry it up and had so much difficulties that man helped us. Haha. At the mansion lobby, many Indians were there trying to 'pull' people to stay in their hostel. It was so scary. They kept following you, pushing you to a corner and we had to hold on to one another while we shun away from them. We had to queue up for the lifts as in really queuing in a row and both lifts serve different levels. They were slow, and cramp and I went in first, going to the 3rd level alone without my friends. OMG, I was frightened by the African guys in the lifts as they kept looking at me, talking amongst themselves and one of them even tapped my luggage. Hello, what are you doing? After a long wait which seems like forever, we finally reunite and headed to the hostel. My first reaction when I saw our room was "HUH?" Auntie Li, the one in-charge of the hostel said that our luggage was too big so she got us a bigger room without charging. But still, it's not very big. 真的好簡陋,空間狹小,讓我感到很不舒服,好像是去露營多過渡假。我的天啊,放了行李後,一點活動的空間也沒有。就連開行李廂都要輪流開。以下的圖為證。

Siyu and the queen size bed.

Mustika's single bed. Look at how cramp it was!

The super 'big' bathtub.
We headed for lunch at some random茶餐廳, they had tomato noodles, so interesting and you can choose 2 ingredients for your noodles. At Kowloon Park, not only was it huge, there are flamingoes in the park. What? Haha..like birdpark like that lah. Then we went to some cruise area to see the Clock Tower and we found cute displays of Olymics 2008! It's beautiful, featuring all the different sports. We planned to go to several museums but somehow it was occupied with exhibitions and the space museum seems too boring. Hehe. So we headed to Avenue of Stars and I lOVE that place! It's such a nice place to cam whore especially with the statues. Hehe.

With our Octopus card(something like our ez-link), we travelled to MongKok, to start a night of intensive shopping spree first a Langham place, then at 花園街。已經很遲了！但找不到Mus口中那間好吃的茶餐廳﹐她死都不肯放棄。走了好長的一段路﹐有不清楚店在哪﹐真的是氣死我了。但以合為貴﹐幸好她終于找到那間店，不然就餓死他鄉了！畢竟已經九點多了。

Kowloon Park.

Nice flowers:)

Flamingoes in a park?

The Clock Tower.

Their ice-cream car.

MsPeh, MsGunawan & MsLye

沖啊!

This is for my badminton kakis!

Andy Lau's palm prints at 星光大道!

So zai right?

I love filming:)

未來的大導演!
At the hostel, we made friends with a group of backpackers from Germany and one of the guy was pretty handsome. But it's really scary, to think we're chatting outside our hostel and there are wild cats walking around. Ahhhhh!!!!

DayTwo

I WAS HOMESICK, for the first time in my life.

I couldn't sleep. The horrible living conditions, I felt that the air was contaminated(那是流行性感冒的期间，所以有点胡思乱想). It feels nasty, and that the 3 of us have completely different lifestyle, how I''m really particular about neatness and cleaniness and to live together, it's really about accomodating. I WANT TO GO HOME:(

We woke up super late and after taking ages to put on makeup (ahem, mslye) we eventually headed to the Race Course Road at noon only to realise there were no horses racing there that day. They were racing at another Racing Stadium and all we had was the big TV to watch live telecast and even the museum was closed. Aww....what a wasted trip. So we took小巴to Repluse Bay and the bus was speeding at a really fast speed. There are no specific routine hence you have to specify when you board, very different from Singapore.

The tram!

Where the lifeguard is located.

I LOVE REPLUSE BAY!

The temple by the beach.

Mustika and I.

A super nice cake I saw. Cute hor?

Our dinner.

An interesting vending machine selling books for lesiure. Suits me sia, all the chinese books.

I was so afraid that I'm over spending because HongKong is indeed a shopping paradise and I was buying like nobody's business when it's only the second day. There was this vendor, a young man, who tried so hard to flirt when we bargin with him. 他在那裡自導自演! 超搞笑的。回到宿舍已經是十二點多了! 我的腳因為一整天這樣的奔波酸到~ 哈哈!

DayThree

It was a crazy, fun day spent at Ocean park. The day started out with me still feeling homesick and couldn't resist but sms back home to talk to a friend about it. Then breakfast at this dimsum place was enjoyable as this waiter was super funny to us, as in his behaviour was really cute, the way he talked to us, knowing we're not locals and how when I enjoyed the cartoon song on TV, he saw it and sang it out. Haha.

I made a bad choice to wear shorts for unlike the day before, it was a very windy and cold day especially when we're up at the highlands where the themepark was located. Mus was so scared of heights. I never knew it and the only ride she wanted was Merry-go-round. Of course we didn't let her off so easily lah. But still we couldn't convince her to take the 360degrees roller coaster ride. The cable car ride don't to the lowland was freaking me out because of Mus's reaction. I can't blame her, but I had a shocked.

Ocean Park, here I come!

One of the long escalators to our rides.

Aiyo, 怕怕!

Part of the Ferris Wheel.

At the top of the Ferris Wheel.

Going on to the Hot Air Balloon.

Merry-go-round!
After that, we went to The Peak. Wow, it was beautiful:) The tram ride up was so steep that it was a even scarier rider compared to the roller coaster and our neck ache from going against the gravity. I swear, it was super STEEP and the tram's ground was designed in such a way having so much curves to prevent anyone from falling which I thought was a really smart design. Yes, being at the PEAK, it was so cold that I wonder why didn't I fall sick the next day as my cardigan wasn't useful at all.

As I called home that day, I also called a good friend of mine and somehow I felt better about missing my comfortable room. Haha. After the calls back to Singapore(hehe!), we headed for dinner at 11plus and seriously ate a lot of junk from beef noodles to desserts to 小吃。超棒的!:)

HongKong's night view.

We came to a conclusion that Siyu is a bad photographer, she just lack the talent in it. This photo was ruined because of the bad proportion of the size of the person to the background.

See, this is what I called good photography skills done by me. I'm not being mean, for we all agreed on it. Whahah.

夜晚的都市。

The Peak.

Passing by the wax museum that we had no time to visit.

On our way back.

超贊的“許溜仙”。

我們常光顧的路邊攤。

DAY FOUR

We intended to go Macau today, but hehe, slept super late every night leh! By the time I finish bathing, finish watching my 公主小妹﹐中級一家 it was already 4plus pm leh! So we overslept! Hehe and so we change our plans and went to this place called "Nong Ping".

Breakfast at their so-callled local Fast Food Restaurant.

HAHA! CHINESE ROAD SIGNS.

I found this at the MRT station!
Nong Ping is at the extreme end of this line of their MRT. Siyu can practically sleep everywhere, once she gets a sit, she sleeps! Win already! Mus can't sleep, being our tour guide, we'll get lost if she ever dose off. Haha, throughout the trip, we all started having special roles. Like how Siyu is our nanny, paying for all our expenses while Mus is the tour guide and yes, I'm the time keeper, the one making sure we have sufficient time to go to as many places as possible. Hehe. We had to seat the cable car all the way across I think at least...hmmm 4mountains? We were shocked when we saw people walking down the mountain roads. Gosh, how long would that take?

After about 20mins, we finally reached! YAY! It’s freaking cool!! 刺骨的寒风，让人全身颤抖！But it’s a breathtaking sight to be up the mountains. We climbed up this hill to reach the Big Buddha before taking Bus21 to Tai-O Village. Their bus seats come in group of 3 and 1 so we all get to seat together! You can hardly find this in Singapore. At Tai-O Village, a lady approached us to sell tickets to see the dolphins. It was priced at about S$4++ thus we gladly bought it and sat on this really small boat that sped really fast! 好刺激！在快艇上，刺骨的寒风拼命的朝我们吹来，感觉超爽的。我真的很幸运，因为我看到很多我最爱的海豚！他们好可爱，在大海里自由翱翔，有一只跳得好靠近我的座位！好兴奋！之后在这个鱼村走走，还去买了活海鲜，让当地的餐馆现场帮我们烹调美食。好丢脸！因为不会吃尿虾所以劳驾伙计示范给我们看。哈哈！我们竟然不知道巴士有指定的时间，以为像新加坡一样，所以没搭上最后一趟！糟了！缆车六点就关门了，我可不想在这座山上待上一晚！啊！救命啊！那里唯一的得士去没有司机，啊！幸好在5.56pm, 吃饱的司机捧着豆花出现了！哈哈。急急忙忙的火速载我们三个糊涂虫到缆车管。我们拼命的跑，最后迟到了两分钟！哇，累死了！！工作人员用walkie-talkie以广东话说“有三个女生正在跑来” 。哈哈。丢脸死了，最后我们和其他工作人员一起坐缆车下去。

在山脚的购物中心里，我们发现了一栋全是outlet shops的购物中心。哇，又在血拼了。钱不够用啊！Mus actually spent HK$1000+ in the edc outlet shop! WTH!?! Scary man! And I had to pled the NIKE store man to let me buy the bag I wanted to give Zhanhao because their shops closes very early at 9pm! SO MALU!

In the cable car!

We braved the heights and arrived:)

Jump!

The BUDDHA.

At the pier of this place called Tai-O.

On the speeding boat!

The coolest ride!

Their market!

The live seafood for sale!

The nice fishing village.

His business is so good that he ignored our order!

Our seafood meal:)

The injuries as a result of de-prawning:( My cuts were really bad.

SUPPER!

DAY FIVE

We managed to wake up early to catch the ferry to Macau. 但我们还是乌龙百出！哈哈！We bought tickets for the 11.30am ferry and when we queue up at 11.20am there was already a long queue. When we finally reached the lady at the counter, she told us that we were supposed to check in earlier as the queue was for the 12pm ferry! ALAMAK. Okay, to me it was just a short ride from Singapore to Sentosa loh! BUT, hehehe, you must get your passport stamped you know? OMG. So we 'SMUGGLED' ourselves onto the 12pm ferry and happily arrived at Macau in an hour's time. That was close man, we are super BLUR can! AHHH. It's horrible, the checking out queue was so long and we wasted 1hour there! Wth? Furthermore the ladies in front and behind us were quarelling. The lady in front is unreasonable man, she cut our queue. Being nice kids in a foreign land, we didn't want to get into trouble so the lady behind拔刀相助，我们夹在中间，不知所措！It's the first time we came to Macau so we really took a map venture on our own and since this man approached us for free rides to this casino, we happily accepted his offer and went to gamble:) SO NOOB! we each exchanged for HK$10 worth of chips and the lady stared at us. Why leh? Eventually when we wanted to placed bets, we realised that the minimum bet is actually HK$50! Haha, so MALU! No wonder she give us that funny look lah! WHAHAH. Okay so we exchanged for more and after visiting 2 casinos, we ended up with what we started out with. Comeon, we only knew how to play the big-small table and lost what we won. Nevermind, it's a good try. 我们乱闯，凭着地图上的指示，路人的协助步行到想去的地方。是忙的loh! 咱们走马看花似的利用那几个小时的时间不知到了我们想去的地方还去了商店老板娘介绍的旅游景点！哈哈！好厉害耶！回到了香港，我们去吃火锅，叫了鲍鱼，哈哈，还要求他们帮我们将小小的鲍鱼切成3块，好好笑！有种肉，忘了什么名，但很好吃:) 过后，我们有逛街去了！！

MACAU

Shan teng!

DAY SIX
回到花园街做最后一次的血拼，带着重重的行李去搭巴士。一位热心的老外帮我们放行李，哈哈，我们这次的行李可以放在第一排！因为巴士姗姗来迟，所以我们在20分钟前才check in, 用最后10分钟的时间吞下晚餐，冲去搭机，成了最后登机的搭客，害得全车的人等我们。哈哈，赶来赶去，真的，好累！

BYE HONGKONG!

On the plane:)

HELLO SINGAPORE!

Flying~

2008-06-05T22:00:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
I'll be flying to TAIWAN from 6June to 13June08!
So if I can't be contacted, you know why:)
Miss me okay! Hehehe.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEONGCHYN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUEHHSIN.

old school friends.

2008-06-04T17:34:00.002+08:00

Now that we finally accepted our offers after all the serious discussions and horrible torture that we underwent which killed so many of our brain cells(at least for me!), especially how I convinced my heart and my brain to seat down and talk it out and finally made a decision on my own. My mom and dad were much more smarter than me. They knew the answer without thinking actually. It was just the fight between money and interest. Hehe. Well well, and now that my old friends from secondary school ask me what course I'm doing, a couple of them surprise me by giving me BINGO answers with one try. Hmm, is it that obvious? Weiting is sort one loh, can't she do something sort to shock you? (Do you think it is shocking if I say I want to go China to study?) Haha. Yes and close friends can't associate me with mechanical engineering either so yayy, I'm on my way to NUS! :) Haha, I shall leave room for imagination to those that still have no idea what course I've accpeted. I would definitely be excited to hear the kind of things you think I would do!

Now, I need to find a roommate and yes, sign up for the so-many camps that I want to go and yes, I'm all ready for the next journey of my life!

Steve Jobs

2008-05-28T22:48:00.006+08:00

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing in the dots will connect you round the world, will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even if lead you off the world one path and that would make all the difference.

Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

-by Steve Jobs

A very meaningful speech, very relevent to what I need now.

We need a diet!

2008-05-25T16:00:00.011+08:00

We seriously need a diet.
23/05/08:
Dinner at Sakura with YunShuen and RuiChao.

Round1.

Round2.
Opps...I forgot to take the picture of Round3.

The so-called Strawberry and Pepper by MrKor.

My HOT FAV! Salmon and Tuna:)

The satisfied guy!

The girls! See the smoke is due to the nice herbal soup.

A lame shot of mine. He DAO me!

2008-05-22T22:46:00.003+08:00

Guide me but not help me.
If I don't stand up on my own,
I be a loser forever.

The victory of David Cook send us into a series of excitement. We kept watching the clips on you-tube although it was supposed to be working hours. Haha. I'm not a big fan, but this season was good.

I'm starting to enjoy lunch hours with my colleagues. Actually, they're cute. Hehe. Especially Sijin. The designers are pretty Chinese-speaking and they are mostly in their 20s and early 30s. Lydia was commenting how I don't behave like a nineteen-year-old. Is this supposed to be good or bad? I felt bad loading Tracy with work today, she's another very nice person. We always feel very sleepy together after lunch. Ha! And Earlene taught me how to use Freehand today! It's a software for designing. It's pretty complicated yet fun. Wa, once I master it I can do my Ads without troubling others to do it for me:) If I can conquer that irritating Adnet, I don't believe I can't do this! Oh, Adnet is a booking system for Display Ads not in the classified sections. It feels like a programmer as all the keys function is different when it comes to this software. Most importantly, once I get connected to the SPH booking network, I get log off from MSN. So that basically explains my 'disappearance'.

2008-05-20T17:34:00.002+08:00

I like my office view. In front of me, the high-rise buildings stood tall in the CBD area. The large glass panels allow me to see all the way to Chinatown and the blue sky above these man-made landscapes is boundless as if to say that nothing is impossible. I like that feeling, if only my seat was more comfortable and that I wouldn’t ache. Though I do not really communicate much to my colleagues about my personal life and gossip as much as I did in my previous job, I must admit, they’re really nice to me. Boss has been really kind, driving me around when I make deliveries and making an effort to teach me in letter writing, calculations of revenue etc. I did learnt. This is closer to a real job, until I was not really needed any longer.

The family chalet on Sunday was good till a friend of my cousin fell while roller blading, dislocating her arm. It started with another friend lending me his blades, like on the spot; in the middle of ECP we were exchanging our footwear. Haha. He actually could fit into my slippers! Then while I bladed for maybe less than 5mins, she fell and everyone came rushing, dividing workload, to drive her to the hospital, to help her to the car, to return her rented blades, to fetch her slippers and of course to bring my young nephew back to the chalet. Of course, I did the latter. It’s really scary, looking at her arm, she was in so much pain. The first time mummy saw me blading and maybe the last, she’s really think that sport is extremely dangerous. In the end, I waited for daddy to return from the hospital, as there weren’t enough seats to send all of us home in the car. Surprisingly, I had fun cycling with my nephew. I didn’t thought I could take care of a kid, especially since he doesn’t usually hang out with me. I’m good okay, I was looking after him, pedalling while I talked on the phone. This is MULTI-TASKING! Hehe.

My EC is cute:)

Hectic workload.

2008-05-19T16:10:00.003+08:00

Friday was the most stressful day I ever had working in my current firm. Earlene went for a meeting and I had to handle at least 5jobs at one go with so many deadlines to meet. ET this advertisment by 1pm, that one by 1.20pm, another Ad by 2pm. Email Ad to this person, that Ad to that client....Check with this designer if she's done with this Ad, get a designer to help you FA that Ad. Gosh....I must thank Sijin for willing to help me FA the Ad. The client send in at the very last min, well, actually over the deadline and I had to call SPH, Mediacorp to extend deadlines. I must say I'm not very good at communicating, not a very PR person. I admire how Don and Earlene liase with both clients and media. Actually an Accounts Manager can be in very difficult position at times as we do not wish to ET an Ad late as the problem does not lies with us but yet have to be very tactful in asking for leniency if not there will be a surcharge to pay for. So you can imagine how busy I was calling, checking emails, moving about the office. By the time I lunched, it was already 2.30pm! 累到餓不出來了。Maybe I'm used to the having-late-lunch-lifestyles. We normally eat at 1plus-2pm. Haha.

我努力的看開點﹐但還是會有顧慮。尤其在家人不諒解的情況下﹐情緒變得有點極端。哈哈。有時覺得內心好像被封閉了起來﹐但平日卻仍然嘻皮笑臉﹐我這個人﹐真怪﹗

KBOX with Mel, Queen, Ade, Cheekian was good. I'm sorry for being so late. Yunshuen was nice to wait for us and then we cabbed to Mel's place to play cards. BUT, MrLoy misses his bed too much after 6days of field camp! Wa, he's super lucky to have a nice sister to send him home at 3am in the middle of the night! SO HIONG. After field camp still got the energy to play. MsChew is tired and fell asleep leaving 3 lonely souls to play cards. HOW TO PLAY LIKE THAT? Hence we went to eat prata. HOW FATTENING CAN THAT BE? Haha and then sleep. So sad, no bridge! This was the sole purpose of the sleepover la. AND I SERIOUSLY NEED TO WORKOUT! It's either the breakfast or it's my stamina but I don't seemed to sustain a game and yes, partly because I wasn't concentrating and was sub-consciously troubled too. Yeah. So I didn't play much either :(

My Chinese.

2008-05-13T11:58:00.000+08:00

Recently, I’ve been reflecting. Somehow, I’m considering majoring Chinese for I’ve got a strong urge to write. Maybe cause I’ve just found a good book, by a famous writer, You Jin (stupid, I can’t type in Chinese at work). And yes933’s Guan Tuo Ju Chang is another factor too. Cruz Teng is really talented, and I wish to write fascinating scripts like him too. Apparently, I’m doing a really bad job in English so I believed Chinese is supposedly my innate ability that I should be better at. Still, I encountered words that I’ve never come across in the book. Oh dear! Hmmm, will Wei Ting ever come up with her second script?

I’m bored!
I need to start job searching again!

2008-05-11T21:58:00.004+08:00

I almost died laughing. Haha. I laughed all the way from the fifth storey of the carpark till I reached home and this must have been the best Mother's Day present. It goes like this:

We all got out of the car and daddy was scolding my brother for opening his car boot wide open causing it to be stuck at the railings in the carpark that he couldn't closed it. He was explaining because just now Mummy was still seating in the car so ZhanHao could open it fully. So I joking told my Mom to seat into the car again and she amazingly did. Guess what, immediately the car sank and Daddy was able to close his car boot! Whahah! What a comical scenario. We all laughed so hard that I teared badly and couldn't stop coughing. OMG!!
WHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

Not nice VS nice bowling shoes. I haven't worn shoes' without shoelaces for a long time! Haha.

She thought she was right.
But those words explained everything.

2008-05-08T14:21:00.003+08:00

Park Shin Yang won the best male actor for this something like Korea’s Oscar! Yayy! My Park Shin Yang from "Lovers in Paris". Hehe. I’m so happy.

Okay, my voice is still “sexy” and husky. I wonder when can I go kbox and sing again. When I talk, there are still certain words and pitches that gets cut off. So cool right? I met Mel at the train station (apparently we both worked at Tanjong Pagar area), I was shouting her name and the only reason she stopped was because, she heard some one going out of tune. HAHA.

I’m super bored at work. The permanent staff took away my interesting work. I don’t like it!

I attended street jazz lesson with Siyu, Esther and her friends yesterday and now I’m aching all over. OMG. Dancing really isn’t my forte. But I had fun learning something new and dance is something I wouldn’t mind taking up. However, I’m pretty bad at it, is there any elementary courses, as I cannot even get the foundation right.

Can’t wait for Friday cause my weekend starts on Friday night where I’ll go havoc till Sunday and yes, I’m filled with activities this weekend! :)

Sick

2008-05-05T13:27:00.006+08:00

If there's a best endurance award, I'll probably be nominated. Gosh, this virus is harmful man. My head's going to exploded soon as a result of my blocked nose, blocked ears and yes, I've even lost my voice. Great!

As I cleared my inbox, I came upon messages my friends sent to cheer me up. I realised how gulible I was to believe in it. Those hopes were naive, only to hit me harder with its outcomes. Their intention were good, they cared, better than some whom I wished did but didn't. But I can't help but feel angry at this particular message on how I can easily get into a decent course with my grades. These are all lies! I was stupid to trust it. They don't understand what I'm going through, it's me, not them, they can just say it so easily. But I can't. Suddenly, I felt being mocked at.